Misadventures of a Mademoiselle

Labels that hurt.

2012-01-04T05:21:00.001-08:00

To all those people who see and label me as a person who is only a spoiled brat and that I am only a person who is up to no good, from this day on, I will prove to you that I will study and work harder to achieve my goals in life and that someday I will live as a person who can handle responsibilities and can balance her lifestyle.

2012 will really be a challenge for me to take every risk I could take. And with God's help, anything is possible.

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Start of the Year and I'm feeling like ..

2012-01-03T18:13:00.001-08:00

Like a plastic bag. And yes, I want to start again .. It's 10 in the morning and am being jealous .. Of one of my childhood idols in my HS varsity. We have the same course and passion. It's weird because I always looked up to her and now, I just want to be BETTER than her in the things I could get better.

This year, I would give my best at everything. And that I would look my best whenever I'll be going somewhere so that if ever am at my worst, I still look my best :)

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Cheers to 2012! :)

2012-01-01T08:57:00.003-08:00

Happy New Year Everyone! :) New year. New chances. New YOU! Yes, a better me this year. I will be for the BETTER APOL! I've got a lot of goals and want-to-experience list this year. Two of my biggest goals this year would be being well-dressed in going to school and all of the occasions I'll be attending. And that I wouldn't be late. Hehe. Am thinking of a motto that would signify both of that goals .. Hmm. Anyway, some of my want to experience list are to attend concerts, finish a portfolio and yes, sign up for Lookbook which I have been attempted to do so many times and this year would be a start for my new blog :) Hoping I could take all of these excitements one day at a time.Phrases I have to live by:1. Make 2012 a happy year.2. If you're stressed or depressed, at least you're well-dressed.3. Live life one day at a time.

The uninspired.

2012-01-01T08:57:00.001-08:00

Nice title huh? Yep. That's what I'm feeling right now. Studies, career and maybe even lovelife. I don't know. I'm uninspired by the things that is happening to me right now. I know I should be positive in every aspect that happens in my life but now, everything is just falling down.

Studies. Yep, i worry about my grades that instead of challenging myself to achieve higher, i drown myself with disappointments and jealousy. Jealous of the people who really achieve without even trying their hardest. While here I am, already not that good at studies and is very lazy doing homeworks and having no focus in class. I know that is my major problem but what can I do? I always complain about how down i am because my grades wasn't that high or that i didn't perform well in class and i am also fed up by my being "nosy" about that.

And now, I WANT TO BE INSPIRED. I want to do good at school so that when the time comes I graduate in college, I would be living my career at the fullest it can be. And after that, I want to inspire people who are down about themselves and wants to change on how they see themselves.

I know am just being a dreamer here. But hey! Maybe someday, I won't be eating all my words ;)

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Grateful to have you.

2012-01-01T08:56:00.001-08:00

I am a person of whom I want a lot of admirers and boys courting me. But there's this one guy I am very fond of :">

But before I was this grateful, there was this guy who also proclaimed that he likes me. We were close at some point but that closeness ended up disappearing. I was sad that from being close friends, we are now just friends. It was a huge adjustment to me because I already had an attachment with him but as time passes, it was cut off.

After that, I became MORE CLOSER to my one year admirer :"> He is a very sweet, thoughtful and handsome admirer. He is always, always there whenever I need someone. He was a very good at courting and very strict that at some point I was suffocating to his "rules".

We had a big argument last night about the issue, and thankfully, he did not gave up on me. I mean, he did not chose to be with someone besides me. I was nosy and out of control that I even suggested that he should find another girl to court for I am unworthy of his efforts.

He said, NO. I was surprised to hear that despite all the things I've said he still refused to find another girl and said "Ano gagawin ko sa kanya eh ikaw ang mahal ko? Wala akong paki kung ganyan ka, basta di kita iiwan. Nakipagusap na ako kay God na ikaw na sana at ng di kita iiwan kahit anong mangyari. Ikaw ang aking mahal at di na magbabago yun". And he was damn serious. And that's the thing I liked about him, he is very truthful to his words. One year of courtship but he never did let me feel that I was just another girl. He always makes me special in a way that we are not like in a courting phase but at the friendship zone.

I am very grateful to have him. Blessed that I am the person that he was given to :">

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You give me the feeling that people write novels about.

2011-03-07T06:24:00.000-08:00

Monday March 7, 2011 --Premature ventricular contractions.

I feel empty. I don't want to give details about anymore but yeah, I do feel hollow. I wish my old self would come back where I would enjoy what goes on with my life and doesn't think about things too much ..

WAKE UP. DO YOUR BEST. SLEEP. REPEAT.

2011-03-03T02:03:00.000-08:00

Thursday March 3, 2011 --HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAYBAY! :)

EXACTLY. So what I'm doing now is trying to be happy so later on I can be happy na talaga :) Get the logic? Haha! Kasi if I continue to down myself, what would happen to me na, diba? So I've decided I would rather try to be happy than drowning myself with tears.

Love yourself first and everything falls into place.

2011-02-27T05:40:00.000-08:00

Sunday February 27, 2011 --It's not right, not okay.

Too much stress this week. haha! kakatapos lang ng midterms e? Ayun, okay naman ata mga scores ko? ATA? Well, I dunno. I've been feeling down lately and it started talaga dun sa MAGAZINE thingy .. Hehe. Ewan? I feel degraded e? Haha! I feel that there's so many people who's better than me .. Yeah. Ewan? Parang wala akong mapagmalaki sa sarili ko .. AGH :| Such a pity kasi I'm really not like this. HAAAY.

I'm scared that you might think I'm insane.
A line from Maroon 5. Hehe. Yun ang pinapakinggan ko ngayon e? haha! So ano nga ba plano ko sa life ko? Grabe nu? Puro ako PLANO, i know .. But it's just a roller coaster anyway. haha! Daming alam!! >:) Oh well ..

Ano ba mga PLANO ko lately? =)))
♣PUMAYAT!
♣magkaroon ng alam sa Adobe
♣magawa lahat ng mga HW namen sa subjects (e.g. IT, CDP & PE)
♣maayos mga site ko
♣makagawa ng account sa chictopia
♣magpractice ng photography and editing
♣have some "girl's time"
♣catch up with some friends
Gosh, my focus is all messed up =)) Di ko alam kung ano ipraprioritize. Hehe. Any suggestions? :) hahaha! Just need advices of FOCUS now ;)

Just what I need, at least, for now.

Nothing's ever perfect, you know?

2011-02-21T06:51:00.000-08:00

Monday February 21, 2011 --Humor teaches tolerance.

"This is me."

Ayun, kakatapos lang ng FEW Class 54 nung sunday and just renewed again our family vows. hehe. Ano pa ba? Uhmm, ayun. Medyo hassle this week .. Kasi midterms blah blah .. Uhmm, i'll be sharing my plans: ..

-Pray the rosary while travelling at the van :)

-Exercise from the tips of Downtownn :)

-No sinful foods

-save at least 2k a month

-Eat breakfast

-baon WATER sa school

-catch up at least one friend a day :)

"Study hard, pray harder."

Strive for excellence, not perfection.

2011-02-16T05:43:00.000-08:00

Wednesday February 16, 2011 --No pressure, just chillin'.

We are all made of stars.

Secret Valentine :)

Today wasn't a very happy day for me. Why? Well, lets start kaninang umaga .. Well, we played the Game of the Generals and I was defeated by Karlo Uminga then napagastos ako kanina ng 75php ng lunch which I could've made baon na lang sana ..

Nung paguwe ko naman, well a few good laughs. Lalo na nung nasa bus, tawanan lang pero nung paguwe, naalala ko na naman syempre yung mga gagawin ko. Layout, Data Struct .. HAHAHAAAAAY :| Where to start? Where to start? Lord, help me.

This sucks. Am feeling down lately NA NAMAN. Bakit ba kasi hindi na lang ako makuntento? AGH. Gusto ko kasi lagi yung BEST when sometimes I can only be GOOD. AGH AGH AGH x(

Why oh why? Ayaw ko ng feeling na ito, nakakalungkot. Its pushing me to be unhappy ee? AGH!!! Why .....

Another issue am having is that, I miss my HS friends BESIDE me always where I feel treated SPECIAL. Alam mo yun? Wala lang. Di ko naman sinasabi na I'm not treated nice sa mga friends ko now pero alam mo yung feeling when you're with your LONG TIME FRIENDS where you could just be yourself without LIMTATIONS? I mean, just being just yourself. AS IN, YOURSELF. Walang iisipin like "baka magalit sila" or "naiinis na ba sila sakin" .. Ewan? I feel a robot sometimes. Hmm .. I have a habit of pleasing others kasi which is VERY WRONG. Yep. I know pero gusto ko yung parang tropa2 lang lahat .. Ganon which medyo malabo mangyari ngayon. I need to stand learn how to stand on my own. Have my own decisions and not be scared of making mistakes.

Tomorrow is another day. NEW BEGINNING. KICK OFF :)

I CAN DO THIS. YES I CAN!

Getting what you want always comes with strings attached.

2011-02-10T21:15:00.000-08:00

Friday February 11, 2011 --Speechless

Today wasn't that a HAPPY day for me. I don't know. I have this friend who is sad or like "not in the mood" and i was like medyo hawa. Oh well .. I need to keep my self intact. Yeah, I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY TODAY .. And I will :)

"Have a little FAITH in me."

Too much for one week.

2011-02-10T00:26:00.000-08:00

Thursday February 10, 2011 --One that has self-control will enjoy life.

First story: I cooked Rice.

So ano tu? This are the food that I cooked last Monday. Haha! Sasarap tignan nu? haha! Pero masarap talaga yan, SWEAR! =)) Anyway, enjoy naman ako magluto. haha! Yung rice na parang bola I cooked it by rolling it over the chicken breading and placed some curry powder to make it more tastier. Sabi nina dad masarap daw pero sana medyo inliitan pa. Masyado kasing malaki for just one person. hehe. Ayun, naubos namin ni Rhobz yung Chao Fan ko kuno. Haha! Suki ko yun si Rhobynne kasi wala rin naman siya choice kundi kainin niluto ko. haha! Eto lang kasi alam kong lutuin as of now .. I repeat, AS OF NOW :)

Second Story: Birthday ni Ama

Ito naman yung regalo namin ni Rhobz na ako lang gumawa nung umaga. Haha! Ayun, napaka AMATEUR lang ee? Haha! Oh well. Ang sasarap ng handa ni Ama, mga paborito ko. tas may kantahan din, haha! Syempre, todo videoke naman ako. haha! Minsan lang ee? Sila naman, amazed sakin. BWAHAHA! =))) Feeling ko naman, ang galing-galing ko? CHOS! =))) HAPPY BIRTHDAY SA NAGIISA KONG LOLA NGAYON! :*

Third Story: Ang malaking bahay.

Ayan yung bahay na super ganda na nakita ko. Haha! Laki nu? Meron yan CCTV pati mga electrical wires sa labas ng bahay. Grabe nga ee? Kakatakot. Haha! Kaya ko ito piniktyuran ay para magkaroon ng "inspiration" yung bestfriend kong nagaaral ng architecture ngayon. Naalala ko kasi siya ee? Hihi. Ito yung pagkatapos ng GA namin, katabi kasi ito ng Center ng Youth namen. hihi :) bale itong araw din naiwan ko yung Jacket ni Rhobynne na Tribal :| Di ko nga alam kung pano saabihin ee? :( OH WELL. Bibilhan ko na lang siya ng bago. Grabe! Dami ko dapat pag-ipunan :| KAYA YAN! GO GO GO! =)))

Fourth Story: Ang Resolution.

Ayun, problema na naman about dun sa isa kong manliligaw. TSK. Para daw kasing AKO na yung nanliligaw kasi ako daw natawag lagi and siya hindi. Naintindihan ko naman yung point ng parents ko and TAMA sila. Masyado kong binibigay yung "pabor" sa kanya, kawawa naman yung iba kong manliligaw. Dapat di lang ako close-minded sa kanya. Give others a chance, ika nga. So napagusapan din namin yung tungkol sa DISCIPLINE & SELF-CONTROL na unti-unti ko raw nakakalimutan. Ewan ko ba? Masyado akong kinikilig sa mga ginagawa niya na alam kong AKO yung nagsasabi sa kanya. Tama sina Daddy ee? Dapat hayaan ko lang yung manliligaw na gawin yung gusto nila sa nililigawan para makita ko ang tunay nilang kulay. Kung ano ang capacity nila, hindi yung parang niloloko ko yung sarili ko kasi parang kinocoach ko ung manliligaw ko para magustuhan ko siya lalo. Mali yun ee? Dapat daw, it will come out NATURALLY. Hehe. May naalala lang ako bigla sa sentence na yan. Hihi. Anyway, yun nga. So siguro kailangan kong mag-lailo, magpakipot ng onti para naman makita ko kung ano ang kakayahan niya sa panliligaw. Ang sabi ko naman kina Dad, "Pano kung sumuko?" Simple lang sagot: "Edi, he's not the one for you. If he wants to be in your life, he will make a way to be in it." Oha! IDOL SI DADDY! haha! Saludo ako e? =))) Ganda nga ng quote na nareceive ko from Soulmate(Monta) ee? Here it goes ..

Why does in ever love story, MOM AGREES AND DAD DISAGREES? It's because Mom knows what love is and Dad knows what boys are.

Tama nga naman diba? Galing ee? haha! Tumpak! =))) Wag ko daw masayadon iclose ang sarili ko dun sa isa kong manliligaw, masyado pa raw akong bata. Enjoy my youth daw, meet other people, relax. Chill. Party hard but study harder :) haha! I LOVE MY PARENTS :) I also watched THE LAST SONG ni Nicholas Sparks and it was a very nice movie, syempre, it made me and my mom cry. haha! We're such a cry-baby kasi pagdating sa mga movies. Hahaha! =)))

I used to be cool, now I'm awesome.

2011-02-04T07:39:00.000-08:00

February 3, 2011 --Belated Kung Hei Fat Choi! :)

KUNG HEI FAT CHOI! :)

This is my look today at school. Hehe. Wala lang. Nagtry lang ako magtucked in and I guess naman it worked naman kahit papaano. haha! Ayun, I'm done with my CODING. haha! Thanks to my mentor, BRENTI GALAMAY :> Haha! he has been there sa mga hirap kong days sa Coding. Hehe. MARAMING SALAMAT BRENTI! :)

Ayun, ano ba nangyari sakin today? Hmm. We had classes this morning sa English, nagquiz saglit then nagtally na nung mga survey ng mga 2nd year. Then uwe agad. Haha! Wala kasi prof namin sa second subject so maaga uwi ko. Buti na lang at least dami ko time para gawin yung assignment sa Data Struct. haha! Nakatulog pa ako ng 4hours! WHOO! Swerte na para sakin yun! Tas nagtext pa si Bhez Mel sakin na baka naext week na ata kami magkikita kita magbestfriends. WEE! :"> Naexcite tuloy ako .. Haha! Ayaw ko magassume pero I proclaim na magkikita kami :> BWAHAHAH! Sana matuloy na ito. Weee! :">

Ayun, pinalitan ko rin yung DP ko sa FB pero sooner or later ibabalik ko yung dati .. Haha! Wala lang, natuwa lang ako .. Daming comments ee? haha! Kaasar lang. Haha! Pero I think okay naman yung .. LIGHTS? >:) haha! Btw, this is JOHN EMMANUEL ISORENA. hehe. My buddy sa DA11. He's a cool guy, knows how to play piano, good voice. Haha! Kumakanta kami minsan sa vacant time namen and its fun. hehe. ayun, sana magtagal yung friendship namin. haha! GORA BUDDY! :)

As my day ends, sana bukas mas enjoy. Whole day kasi klase ko tomorrow. Oh well, GOODLUCK with that ;)

P.S.

He's not my boyfriend, but he's my boy-friend ;)

One fine day.

2011-02-02T02:51:00.000-08:00

Wednesday February 3, 2011 --Welcome month of HEARTS

This is Ana Kristina. Hehe. I just read her blog sa chictopia and I kind of can relate sa mga styles niya :) Hehe. Though muka siyang mas matangkad sakin, I think naman I could work some of her styles :) hehe. So eto yung two SUPER type na style ko. Haha!

So kanina, ang dami ko nang plano para bukas kasi today REST DAY lang ako and tomorrow sana WORK day ulet. hehe. Plano ko sana magpadentist, pumunta ng UKAY .. Pero ang pinakaplano ko talaga THIS MONTH is to:

-buy the CLIPPERS BAG that I want

-REBOND!

-have a DATE :">

-go to a Derma

-save AT LEAST 1000php this month :)

-lose weight at least 2 inches

-learn a new recipe

So yeah, kaya ko naman ata tu kung focus lang ako. haha! Dami kasing DISTRACTIONS. Wahaha! May bago din akong nakakaadikan na kanta ng Tanya Markova, LINDA BLAIR :>

Wala lang. Gusto ko lang ishare, ba't ba? =)))

Anyway, last week medyo napagisip-isip ko na dapat talaga di ako masyadong nagiisip-isip ng bagay kundi malulungkot lang ako. Kaya ang conclusion ko,

KUNG HINDI NAMAN BIG DEAL, WAG NA MASYADONG MAGWORRY

Oha! Galing galing nu? Haha! I know right? =))) Lately kasi medyo nalulungkot ako. Haha! Hindi na bago yun ee no? ERR. Anyway, at least, hindi EMO post tu. haha! Gusto ko rin sana magkaroon ng isang extra curricular activity para yun lang pagcoconcentratan ko. haha! Odiba! GOAL-DRIVEN dapat :> Haha! Dami ko kasi naiisip, di ko naman magawa. ERR. Kasi walang inspiration ee? Pero para maachieve ko tu, idadahilan ko na lang dahil DEBUT ko na. Haha! Magaling ee nu? Haha! Alam ko :"> Anyway, sana magawa ko na ito. AJAAA! =)))

Always here for you.

2011-01-25T06:00:00.000-08:00

Tuesday January 25, 2011 --BESTFRIEND FOREVER.

I feel bad as a BESTFRIEND. Why do I feel like a FAILURE? :|

You know, you just wanna let go.

2011-01-24T03:39:00.000-08:00

Monday January 24, 2011 --Ikaw lang talaga.

Game over, bummer.

For every guy who have broken promises ..

For every guy who made girls cry ..

And for every guy who just can't get enough of those lies ..

THIS IS FOR YOU.

I'll be posting happy thoughts from now on, I won't let this emotional sanity eat me .. ALIVE. Grabe na kasi, these past few days wala man lang nangyaring nagpsaya sakin ng tunay. AS IN. Paano kasi, daming issues .. Kakaasar. Basta, imma concentrate on being happy and won't be affecting myself sa mga bagay bagay na hindi sakin nakapagbibigay saya. Ganon naman talaga dapat diba? Be responsible for your own happiness. And that's what I'm going to do.

GAME OVER, BUMMER.

YOU'RE GOING DOWN.

We treated love like a sport.

2011-01-21T10:19:00.001-08:00

Saturday January 22, 2011 --..Because my heart's hurting.

"Kung kaya mo akong paniwalain sa mga kasinungalingan mo, kayang kaya rin kitang paniwalain na naniwala ako."

LIES. DECEPTION. Yup, two words I am now encountering A LOT! Grabe. Hindi ko alam kung san sisimulan tung post na ito. Super DOWN lang talaga ako ngayon. Grrabe talaga, di ko nakakayanan mga nangyayari sakin ee? ANG BIGAT SA PAKIRAMDAM. Alam mo yung pakiramdam na ang dami mong gustong sabihin, gawin pero hindi mo magawa kasi HINDI NA PWEDE? Huli na ang lahat.

Sige sige, imma get to the point. I'M HURT. Di ko na kaya magpretend. Nahihirapan na ako. Sabi ni Bo, sometimes, we also need to vent out our feelings so we could get rid of old bad feelings and feel refreshed. Sana nga after nito, refreshed ang feeling ko and not frustration.

Naalala ko tuloy yung pinapanuod ng isa kong kaibigan, "CLOSE TO YOU" nina Bea Alonzo, John Llyod and Sam Milby. Nakakarelate pala ako? Pero iba kinalabasan ng story .. Si Sam Milby at Bea Alonzo ang nagkatuluyan. LABO nu? Pero parang ganyan ata mangyayari sakin ee? Wala ee? Bumitaw si John Lloyd. Wala magawa si Bea kasi .. Alam niyang may MAS mahal ng iba si John Lloyd, si Shaina. *Nevermind the people.

Anyway, ayun nga, so syempre masakit para kay Bea yun, pero wala siya magawa kasi nga umamin rin si Shaina sa kanya so syempre, mas alam niya yung katayuan niya kay Shaina kesa kay Bea, diba? Kung ikaw ba lalaki, syempre mas gugustuhin mo yung may gusto sayo kesa dun sa mukang pinapaasa ka lang diba? Pero yan ang di maiintindihan ni John Lloyd na alam ni Sam. Kaya bilib ako kay Sam ee? Kinakaya kahit masakit. Ganon talaga pag nagmahal ee no? Handa dapat masaktan kaso .. HAAAAY. Ewan ko ba. Sa katagal tagal ng prusisyon, bibitaw rin pala. Magaling. NAPAKAGALING. Muli, paasa.

Siguro, sa lahat ng iniisip ko ngayon, mabuting magtuon pansin ako sa mga taong nagbibigay halaga sakin, yung bang KAWALAN talaga ako sa kanila. Yung mga taong HINDI AKO IIWAN. Masarap mamuhay ng wala maxadong pressure, yung bang wala kang iisipin maxado dahil may TIWALA ka dun sa mga taong nakapalibot sayo. Mahirap kasi kapag nakikipagsiksikan ee? Diba? Pero note, iba ang nakikipagsiksikan sa PINIPILIT. Kasi ang nakikipagsiksikan, PWEDE PA, pero yung sa PINIPILIT? NAKO. Hindi na pwede. Uulitin ko, HINDI NA PWEDE.

And starting today, I would be responsible for my own happiness. Di nako magiging linta. Titigil ko na itong kadramahan at magsisimula ako ulet ako. Ayaw ko maging miserable sa buong taon kakaisip kung ano anong bagay na hindi naman dapat isipin. I'll just surrender everything up there :) Yep, kasi Siya lang yung hinding-hindi ako iiwan, well, besides my parents. Hahaha! I know, He have better plans for me. And para kay Sam, kung sino ka man, intay ka lang, darating din tayo sa LS naten :)

P.S.

Hindi ko panghihinayangan ang mga taong hindi totoo sakin.

I love you enough to let you go.

2011-01-19T18:04:00.000-08:00

Thursday January 20, 2011 --Speechless.

"So many hills we had to climb

almost without our strength
but we kept
slowly marchin on

time heals the wounds we couldnt close
blood sweat and tears dried up
we're okay
we kept marchin on

There's so many wars we fought
There's so many things we're not
But with what we have
I promise you that

We're marchin' on."

A very nice song by OneRepublic. I was having a conflict against myself. Yep, myself. I think too much. Dami kong gust which I have a problem conquering. Thanks to my dad, that changed all. Hehe. Now what are my plans to have a better focus. Haha. Hmm ..

Lemme see:

-study Adobe.

-try to have an advanced study.

-learn new recipes

What else? Any suggestions? :)

I expected because you made a promise.

2011-01-08T05:30:00.000-08:00

Saturday January 8, 2011 --My little decoy.

Very true. Well, first of all BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR People :) So there, this first week of January was a BLAST. Yep, a super-duper ear-cracking firework, BLAST. It was full of surprises and emotional issues. Well, there are these issues about the heart, about family and of course, COLLEGE DRAMAS. Haaay. Too much na kasi. I want a simple happy life but how can I have it? Oh how I miss my HS friends.

Anyway, i was feeling upset kanina kasi I felt LEFT ALONE kanina. As in like, no friends na kasama kanina. Pero oh well, we have our own businesses to do and I think the business they're doing is supposed to be EXCLUSIVE to them(?) I don't know. HAAAY. Pero I dont know, I convert every negativ things to POSITIVITY para naman di ako masyadong madismaya.

pero sometimes, my heart grow weak kasi I force myself to forget the pain instead of enduring it and surpassing it. Gets? Mas okay kasi kung ganun, at least alam mong nakamove on ka na unlike pagfoget lang may possibility na maremember mo. Diba? Ayun, dami lang naiipon ngayon and I'm trying to surpass it one by one, little by little, step by step :)

I hope Discipline and Determination help me :) hehe. I also missed praising God and talking to Him, heart-to-heart.

Two is better than one? I don't think so.

2010-12-27T02:44:00.000-08:00

Monday December 27, 2010 --Happy Birthday Argee! :)

" May mga dahilan tayo sa pagtanggi sa ilang bagay. Ang nagpapahirap lang eh yung kawalan ng kasiguraduhan na maiintindihan ka ng ibang tao patungkol dun. "

Grabe. Bigla ko tuloy ulit naisipang magblog, masaya na ako kahapon ee? Ito na naman si CONSEQUENCE. Haaay. Kelan kya yung masaya ako ngayon tas bukas masaya ulet? Haaaay. Ako'y muling nasasaktan, NALULUNGKOT. Nako Lord, sana bago mag-end ang year maging MASAYA po ako. PLEASE? :'c Ayuun, ako'y naguguluhan na naman. Daming nangyayari sakin na hindi ko malamanlaman kung totoo ba o hindi .. Haaay :| Nakakasawa ng masaktan. haha! Biglang ganun ee nu? AMP. Wala lang. Napakadrama ko ngayon. Puro ako sad songs. Waha! ERR. Papalitan ko na nga muna playlist ko ..

Currently playing: "LIKE A G6".

"If I told you I LOVE YOU, I lied."

Grabe! Yan yung tumutugtog nung nasa car kami nina Ate Aela and tawanan lang. Waha! Pero wala lang, nakakatawa. Di ko na alam paniniwalaan ko. Haaay :| Guess just gotta have FAITH in Him and enjoy life. I know this is just another phase of my life and I know kaya ko tu ..

AMP. I miss TS na. Sana magkita kita na kami bukas. Sobrang miss ko na sila :|

Wahahaha! >:) I miss our kulitan blues and stuff .. yung wala iniisip maxado kundi TAWANAN.

Iba na ngayon ee? Puro PUSO ang usapan. Haha! Natatawa ako. AMP.

“At kung may balak ka pang ulitin sa kin yon… May ibubulong ako sa yo.

GO TO HELL, B*TCH!”>:)

have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

2010-12-15T02:17:00.000-08:00

Wednesday December 15, 2010 --It's always going to be you.

"Just needed to post this. Mmkaay?"

We are all laid back.

2010-12-12T03:45:00.000-08:00

Sunday December 12, 2010 --My mind is quite odd.

Kulang ako sa tulog. Oo, kulang na kulang pero wala ee? DECEMBER na kasi kaya super hectic ng schedule. Haaay.

Anyway, ayun. Napablog na naman ako. Bakit? Dahil sa mga nakikita ko sa FB na hindi naman dapat. Nakakairita na HAAAAY. Napapasigh na lang ako sa mga nalalaman ko ee?

Yung mga "false hopes", alam mo yun? :|

Akala mo, yun na yun pero hindi pala. Akala mo dapat, pero hindi pala. Akala mo okay na, pero hindi pala. HAAAAY. All is a lie. A LIE.

Bakit kasi ngayon pang nalalapit ang pasko nalalamn ko ang mga ito ee? BADTRIP.

Anyway, ayaw ko naman masira yung pasko dahil dun diba sooo ..

DEADMA LANG SA MGA YAN AT MAGFOCUS SA MGA NAGPAPASAYA SAKIN ;)

Cause time will do all the healing :)

Feelings of being in love don’t just go away over night.

2010-11-22T21:58:00.000-08:00

Tuesday November 23, 2010 --The Truth

Don't you find it sweet when someone stalk you

just for the reason they care and love you?

because I DO.

You put me in awkward situations.

2010-11-19T05:30:00.000-08:00

Friday November 19, 2010 --I try not to let on but still I blush.

Blessing ko today? MADAMI :)

hehe. Hmm .. first, we won sa game against ANIMATION :) WHOO~! Di ko akalain na makaabot kami hanggang championship. Hehe. Ayun, thankful and grateful din ako sa mga teammates ko :) hehe. Ayun. Ano pa ba? Hmm ..

Ayun, at dahil nagpromise ako na gagawa ako ng blog about sa isa kong close friend :) hehe.

Ayun, ano ba? Maganda kasi kapag hidden ang personality diba? Mas nakakaexcite. haha! Adik lang ee? >:)

Anyway, tuloy ko na? Haha. Ayun, thankful dahil lagi niya akong ginigising(?). Tyaga niya ee? :)) Salamat din sa kanya sa pagsama sakin lagi and support. haha! Salamat din dahil sinasamahan niya ako sa chapel sa 4th floor :) And taga-remind ng kung anong mga gagawin ko. Hehe. Para na nga siyang SECRETARY ko na walang bayad. Haha. WHooo~ Swerte ko nu? :)) =))) Jooooke!

Ayun, ano pa ba? Hmm. Sa paglibre din sa akin ng food, dahil alam niyang matakaw ako pero gusto ko magpapayat. Haha! Adik lang talaga po.

Ayun, enjoy kanina kahit medyo may tampuhan effect na naman yung isa kong friend. Haha!

Ang cool kasi may nakita kaming suka sa gilid ng SM tas sabay pa kaming nagsabi ng "YUUUUCK!" ng parehas na tono PLUS sabay pa iwas. Hahaha! Adik lang ee? :)) =)) Katuwa.

Ayun lang naman, sana madami pang blessings na dumating sakin. Nyaha! Greedy much? :))

P.S.

Katuwa yung pic sa taas. Haha! Wala lang. May meaning lang siya para sakin ;)

Ayun. SALAMAT! :)

If you realized how powerful your thoughts are, you would never think a negative thought.

2010-11-06T01:33:00.000-07:00

Saturday November 6, 2010 --Be feared.

Okaay, wanna what I feel? ~~A fail.~~

Yep, that's what I feel now. Ewan ko ba. Namimiss ko lang siguro HS friends ko? Napapriwal na rin buhay ko ngayon(feeling mo naman may bisyo). Hahaha. Paano kasi, dami iniisip, inaatupag. HAAAAY. Ano ba dapat kung gawin ngayon? Hmm ..

Well ngayon, we're currently at our computer laboratory waiting for our prof to arrive. Dapat nga may midterms kami ee? Di pa ako nagrereview. TSK TSK. Gusto ko mainspire sa mga taong magagaling when it comes to focus like Melanie Tolentino(my bhez), Ate KC and especially Ate Aela. Pero syempre knowing me, I find it hard to do kasi nga I think low of myself. Ewan ko ba. Oo, madami dyan na ibang tao na mas low pa sakin, I mean, mas onti yung mga achievements pero ewan ko ba .. Inaatake na naman ako ng sakit ko na mahilig magcompare. Haaaay :|

Anyway, siguro kaya na naman ako nagbloblog nito kasi wala nagiinspire sakin to do GREAT things ee? Haha. Walang nagtutulak sakin para gumawa ng mga stuff. Dami ko nga gustong gawin ee? Like to improve my skills and talent. Yung dad ko kasi hilig ako icompare kahit sabihin nuiyang hindi daw niya ako kinocompare .. Haha. Ewan ko ba sa kanya pero yung way kung paano magcompare, is the way he doing now .. Somtimes, it hurts me. Yep, kapag alam kong kinocompare niya na ako, I try to change the topic para hindi ako maxadong magself pity sa brain. Alam mo yun? Yung nasa utak lang lahat ng pagself pity mo? Hirap ee? Kasi super kimkim ka sa loob. Ayaw ko siya madismaya sakin kaya I try to THINK of ways na he would be proud of me.

Yung mga things kasi na gusto niya na gawin ko ee, hindi ko nga hilig. Well, for a bit, yeah, hilig ko din pero hindi kasi ako ganun kainteresado kaya I try to think of things na magtutugma yung gusto niya sa hilig ko .. Well, ang pinakanaisip ko ay pagiging isang editor/artist sa isang fashion magazine. As of now, yun yung pinakagusto kong maging trabaho. Kasi it involves fashion, we're I'm really good at, at the same time, yung hilig ni Dad na photography na pwede kong maapply yung natutunan ko sa course ko which is editing and layouting. Odiba? Pwede yung idea ko kaso ewan ko ba pero as usual, parang walang tiwala sakin parents ko na kaya ko abutin yun. Parang minsan, gusto ko gumawa ng mga things na na lihim na ikakaproud nila sakin. Alam mo yun? Yung sideline na mga ginagawa like for example, sali ako sa mga online contests and see feedbacks about my work. And ano tung works na sinasabi ko? Pwedeng mga edited photos--well, di naman na ako masyadong sanay sa Adobe kaya I need to explore na ulet; making articles--well, okay naman kung about sa mga blog and fashion pero kung about other stuff? Ewan lang. I could try. Haha. Ano pa ba? Hmm .. basta mga ganun ..

Madami ako gustong iimprove sa sarili kaso wala ako MOTIVATOR. Ayun, naalala ko yung word! Hahaha. Yun motivator. I need a motivator/s. Well, siguro kasi kulang ako sa discipline? Haha. Yep, I admit. Kulang na kulang ako sa ganun kaya siguro wala napapala buhay ko ngayon. Oo, madami nga akong achievements pero its for the sake of winning ee? Walang achievement. Namiss ko na naman maglaro na volleyball. Kasi dati, yung ang focus ko. Syempre, at the same time, concern ko din studies ko kasi alam kong varsity ako ee? Malaki ang natutulong ng sports sa buhay ng tao. You become more disciplined and stuff. Lalo na sa iang katulad ko na kulang sa focus. Haha.

Ayuun, tapos na klase namen, walang prof. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Siguro, maya na lang ulet?

Waha! Ewan. Namiss ko magrant. Wahaahha! >:)

This is how I feel.

Be like a postage stamp. Stick to one thing until you get there.

2010-11-05T22:20:00.000-07:00

Saturday November 6, 2010 --Nice to meet you.

"I'm trying to shut these feelings out."

So I commented on the status of a 'stranger' and now we're friends .. I think.

Hahaha. Kasi we're not that close talaga and we don't have anything in common. AS IN! Wala talaga .. Nothing to start the conversation. But last night was the only thing we're in common, we're having MIDTERMS. Hahaha! He had this stat that states their midterms were going to end na whereas our midterms were just starting. So i commented na ang swerte naman nila kasi halos tapos na midterms nila. Haha! Ayun, short but memorable? Hahaha! EWAN.

I really like my curl(s) :"> Whahahaha!

May angels lead you in.

2010-10-30T09:53:00.000-07:00

Saturday October 30, 2010 --Let me be the one ..

No pretty drawings. No cryptic messages.
Just .. FAITH :]

People always leave.

2010-10-28T00:32:00.000-07:00

Thursday October 28, 2010 --Or I always push them away?

As usual, I'm in pain that's why I'm blogging. Haha. Maybe I don't blog about my happiness that often maybe because I really treasure them thru brain and heart. And the reason why I'm blogging when I'm sad is not because I want to remember these bad experiences but because I want to let it out. Like, to just release the pain I'm feeling right now.

WARNING! This is an emo post. Haha. So go ahead and read my thoughts as of now.
So yeah, regarding my title, one of my very close friend in college is leaving. Yep, he's migrating to USA. And the hard thing is that, he gained a part of me na ee? Its kinda hard to let go pero as of now, I'm trying to laging binabanggit yun para when the time that he's gonna leave na, it's not that hard for me anymore. I'm starting to have this mindset na AALIS NA SIYA so that it would just be normal and not that huge of a big deal.

Nakakainis lang kasi all the guys that maybe, I like, leave me. Hahaha! Weird nu? Kasi just when the time na we're getting to know each other, FATE won't allow us to know better. Haha. Diba? Wala lang. Parang UNFAIR talaga. Wahahaha! I'm trying to be okaaay pero dammit, apektado ako ee? Kainis diba? Haha. Ako kasi yung iniiwan. Ako yung nagmukang nawalan. Nakakainis. Ang pagkakamali ko, hinayaan ko yung mga taong yun to have a part of me kaya hirap paalisin. Haha. Akala kasi nila ganun kadali ang magadjust, they're WRONG. I know, siguro nga, ayaw din nila akong iwan pero diba, sana hindi na lang sila NANGAKO kasi as usual, NAPAPAKO ee? Ako yung nagdudusa kasi syempre, UMASA ako ee? Which the huge mistake I made. Hirap kontrolin ng feelings. Di mo maiwasang mapalapit ka sa tao at masaktan. Ganun ee? Concern ka kasi sa kanila kaya tayo nasasaktan. What if maging manhid ako? Baka kasi di nako matawag na BUHAY nun. Wahaha! I'm glad to feel joy and sadness at the same time pero now, mostly sadness. Waha! I miss my girlfriends tuloy :'c

People say, "intindihin mo na lang.." but how about MY feelings? Diba? Kapag sinasabi nila na, "AALIS AKO", wala ako magawa kundi tumawa at sabihing, "Oh talaga? Haha. Ingats. PASALUBONG." at tignan sa malayo ang mga mangyayari at hayaan ito ng walang imik kasi, WALA EE? Wala nako magagawa. Ganun ang decision ee? Haaay. Minsan, ayaw ko na rin kumilala sa mga tao ee? Haha. Lalo na pagdating sa mga suitors ko? Waha! Iniiwan din pala nila ako. Wahaha! Kainis ee? Dapat, paggusto nila manligaw, una ko dapat tanong, "IN THE FUTURE, AALIS KA BA?" Wahha! Weirdo ko naman kung ganun diba? :)) =))

Well siguro, I just have to deal with it and enjoy kung ano man nangyayari sakin and don't think about it too much. Haha! Kasi ayaw maalis sa isip ko na mga tao hilig akong iwan ee? Waha! Buti pa mga hayop, iiwan ka lang pag namatay na sila. Wahahha! Mga tao, NAKO. Haha. Ayuun, i hope padating nung time na iwan ako ng mga taong napapalapit sakin, hindi ako ganun kaapektado :)

A letter to GOD:

Daer LORD,

When the time when people closest to my heart leaves, please help me surpass the feeling of being LEFT OUT. Amen.

Your Daughter,
Apol Villaluna :*

The beginning and the end.

2010-10-14T05:16:00.000-07:00

Thursday October 14, 2010 --Wherever you go, I'll follow you.

"All we gotta do is have faith."

Just had a praise and worship all by myself. Waha! Wala lang. Ang ganda kasi ng ambiance dito sa bahay. Kaming dalawa lang ng kapatid tas ang tumutugtog "Gitara by PNE", odiba? Gance ng ambiance! With matching lamp light lang. Waha! Ayuun, kakatapos ko lang magworship kay God. Wala lang. Namiss ko lang siya. Ee kasi naman may katampuhan ako today na friend and syempre, kanino ako magconsult ngayon, syempre kay Bro :> Odiba? Wahaha! Bonding kami kanina ee? Wahaha. Sarap ng feeling. Namiss ko magworship sa kanya. Wala lang, parang ang tagal2 ko na siyang hindi nakakausap. Parang something's missing tuloy sakin. Ayeee :">

Ayuun, kanina sa school, wala naman masyadong nangyari. Waha! Nainspire ako kay BFF Fiona kanina, kasi nakapagusap kami. grrabe! Imba GWA niya ee? 1.4? >:) Wahaha! Sipaaaag! Kung akala koo yung akin mataas na, well, i gotta think again. Wahah! Parang sarap nga magpakanerd? Matry nga >:)

Humanda ka sakin SECOND SEM, bibirahin kita! >:)) Wahahah! Swerte kasi niya meron din siyang curricular activities kaya most of the time, occupied siya. Waaaah! Namiss ko tuloy maglaro ng Volleyball. Waha! kasi these past few days, atat akong umuwi, ewan ko kung bakit? Wahaha! wala naman akong gagawin sa bahay. Kaen, internet at tulog lang naman ginagawa ko. Wahaha! kakalabasan neto, tataba nako ee? >:) AMP. Need to rethink about stuff. Kasi nowadays puro ♥ yung napapansin ko kasi wala naman masyadong HW and super aga ko umuuwi. Gusto ko ng sideline. Wahahaha! Yung bang magpapaiba ng focus ko besides ♥. Wahaha! kakasawa ee? >:) Kidding. Pero swear, minsan nakakaloka kasi. Mas okaay sakin yung maraming ginagawa na stuff na may benefit sakin. Wala ako masyadong iniisip kundi YUN >:) Odiba? Hmm. Pahelp? Wahahah! Kung sino ka mang nagbabasa nito, penge suggestions ;) Need ko lang ng mga gagawin. Hmm ..Well, I was thinking to explore my MAC kasi may bagong OS yun, all thanks kay MAITA MENDOZA! :*♥ You made my day talaga! Wahaha! Saya ko ee? >:) Di na kasi luma yugn features ng MAC ko. Wahaha! Belat! >:) :)) =)) Pero di ko alam kung ano gagawin? Wahaha! Sabagay, kaya nga explore diba? >:) Oo na po! Wahaha. imma try siguro next week? kasi bukas, gawa ako HW sa ProgLan and Linux.

And speaking of those subjects, HIRAAAAAP! X(Swear. Unlike nung sa IT namen nung first sem. Wahah! Dami na kasi distractions ngayong second sem ee? Tska wala ako inspiration, BV ee? >:)>

I mean, yung bang magpapagana sakin magaral. Hmm .. Pwede naman si Kim Bum? Or si Sam Concepcion? Or si Enchong Dee? Wahaha! pero para naman diba? >:) In my dreaaaaams! :)) =))

Oxa, at napadaldal nako dito. Waha! imma rethink about stuff later, bago matulog.

Wahaah! ganun naman lagi ee? :D

Cause everything you told was all a lie.

2010-10-13T06:01:00.000-07:00

Wednesday October 13, 2010 --Just gonna stand there and watch me break.

Imma start with what happened yesterday ;)

Hmm .. So Christopher Magnifico, Mykol Salazar, Bryan Baybay and Renz Bacungan came to visit me sa house and I was like O.o

Hahaha! Kasi di ko naman akalain na pupunta sila, akala ko nagjojoke lang si Tope. Ayuun, natuwa ako kasi parang start of the week pa lang tas andami ng surprises? :)) Well, kahit hindi nila gift yun, natuwa ako dahil binisita nila ako kahit di nala pinalano. Wahah! Thank you guys! Miss ko na kayo *huuuug* :* :)

Katuwa kasi parang nagbalik yung Highschool :)) =)) Well, maikli lang kwentuhan namen ee pero enjoy naman kahit papaano. Waha! Kumaen sila sa bahay ee? :)) Ayuuun, it was a blessing having them to visit me kahit sa maikling oras lang. Thaanks talaga. You made my night kagabi ;)

So yung ngayon, madami ako ikekwento. Waha! Sisimulan ko kaninang umaga which I find FUNNY(?). Kasi nung nasa jeep ako papuntang sakayan ng van, pagpasok ko pa lang ng jeep may nalanghap na akong usok galing sa sigarilyo. And you know what I saw after smelling that?

NO SMOKING SIGN.

Kainis diba? Plus, ayaw ko talaga ng sigarilyo. BV ee? Pero buti na lang may panyo akong dala. Wahaha! Belat siya! :)) =))

Next, kanina nung PE subject namin, may tinanong ako sa prof ko about PINGPONG ..

This was our conversation ..

Me: Sir, may tanong ako sayo ..
Sir: Oh, ano yun?
Me: Sir, as an IT student, bakit kailangan namin nito? (Sabay pakita sa pingpong racket)
Sir: Ah, kasi ganito yan ..
May ibang players na mas gusto ganitong hawak pero pareho lang yun ..
Me: *LAUGHS HARD*

kasi ganito yun, nung pinapakita ko kay Sir yung raketa, bale, nakaPENHOLD ako nun. Wahaha! So akala niya, I was referring to bakit kailangan ng PENHOLD sa Pingpong which "BAKIT KAILANGAN NG PINGPONG SA COURSE NAMIN" ang tanong ko. Wahahaah! Funny diba?

It really gave me a blast! Thaanks Sir Jondie! :)) =))

And ayun, today was a LAUGH day for me. I had so many jokes with my Dad and syempre sa mga moment na di alam ni Mom na nagjojoke siya. Funny talaga. Err :)) =)) I LOVE MY FAMILY! :))

I am not scrared, I just have allergies.

2010-10-09T23:35:00.000-07:00

Sunday October 10, 2010 --10/10/10

This morning, we had a Bible study and me and my youthmates had a lot of stuff we talked about. Wahaha! Nagkwentuhan kami ng kahit ano, like school, family and syempre Love Life. Waha!

Natawa ako kasi ibuking ba daw na may crush sakin yung batang kapatid ng kayouth ko sakin? :)) As in, BATA pa. Kids pa ee? >:)

Katawa diba? Tas di lang yun, kasi meron akong isang kaibigan na pumunta sa isa sa mga activities namin, tas sabi ba naman, "Feeling mo gwapo, DI NAMAN." Wahahaha! Dun ako natawa ee? Batang-selos lang. Wahaha! Kakatawa kasi yugn friend ko na yun, lagi ko inaasar na panget. Wahahaha! Sibaaak siya dun sa bata ee? :)))

Ayuuun, kung sa LL, okaay naman ako, sa School, medyo hindi. I am not happy on how I am performing now .. AS IN.

Eto na naman yung pagkaparanoid ko(namana ko ata sa Bhez kong si Melanie) Waha. Napaparanoid ako kahit konting mistakes lang sa quizzes. Grrabe! Kung sa personal, okay lang ako tignan, deep inside me, nagpapanic ako. Swear. Unti-unti akong nawawalan ng pag-asa mag cum laude. Well, siguro I need to FOCUS ulit and take control of my actions.

Ewan? Waha. It's just that .. Hmm. Paano ba? :))

Kasi yun nga, maxado akong naooverwhelmed sa mga nangyayari sakin na ayun nga, nawawala ako sa FOCUS. Hmm, guess I need to take control nga and manage my time. Wahaha!

Anyway, wala lang, Bigla ko lang naisip, gawa kaya ako lookbook? :))

para kasing masaya, tas makakakuha ka pa ibang critic sa ibang tao. Ahe.

Wala lang. imma try to yeah, gawa nun kapag may compilation nako ng mga styles and looks ko. And speaking of that, ayun, i can't manage yung sa Blessing Photography na Facebook. Err. Gusto ko kasi, OK LAHAT. Gets? :)) Yung parang nagagawa ko ng maayos lahat, which is impossible? Waha. One day, siguro bukas, imma try to do ALL i need to do bago makipagsocialize sa iba. Wahahah!

So imma list it para maayos. So here:

--Fix closet

--Do presentation for History of Design and Art.

--Do ALL HW na para hindi hassle.

--program for the Kids Gathering this oct.17

--update Facebook of Blessing

So yeah, yan muna as of now. Wahaha! Tinatamad na ulet ako, later nlng ulet siguro? :))

Ciao~! :*

Next time, there will be no next time.

2010-10-08T18:27:00.000-07:00

Saturday October 09, 2010 --IMBA.

Yesterday, this what happened. Sorry for only updating this morning. I am at my ITC103 class and my prof is still not here. Hahaha! So, imma post of what happened yesterday :)

So last night, my bes sent me a message thru YM .. He told me that I ruined our friendship because I told his Ex that I was his "MISTRESS" which I did not say straight. I told the girl that I was "parang kabit" kasi we were doing things behind her back. (Note: This happened last year..)

Nakakainis lang kasi my bes, JUDGED me agad without knowing my side first. I was about to explode pero I prayed to God na sana maayos and hindi ako sumabog sa galit at magsabi ng mga kung anu-ano na makakapagsira ngfriendship namen. Err :|

Ayuun, so we had a conference, kaming tatlo para wala ng miscommunication .. Ako na naginitiate magkaroon nun .. Naiinis ako kasi parang nasira pa reputation ko na ginawa pa akong SINUNGALING, which is not true naman talaga. I just told the girl the truth.

What was my mood during the confe? SCARED.

Yep, i was scared kasi baka masira na naman yung friendship namen ng bes ko which I tried so hard top regain kasi nagaway narin kami nung grade 6 kami .. Hindi kami nagpansinan the whole year. Kahit nung graduation, WALA. So ngayong nakakapagusap na ulet kami, syempre, ayaw ko na maulit yun. Kaso sa nangyari nga kagabi, parang mauulit :|

Well, I would just surrender everything kay Bro.

But before this happened, kwento ko what happened nung thursday.

Thursday noon, I met the Ex of my bes. We had a two-hour conversation. I told her everything .. about the TRUTH. Yep, I told her. I want to get rid of my guilt .. EVERYTHING.

I don't want to hide anymore, and now, I am free of guilt and now I am facing the consequences.

I felt that needed to tell her na ee? Cause its the time for me to clear my wrongdoings ..

So last night, it was my bes turn. Yep, their conversation was very scary. Hindi ako sanay na makawitness ng magex na nagaaway since yun nga, NBSB ako. Super takot ako sa kanila, ee maaga pa pasok ko ngayon, so maaga ako nagout ..

Di ko na alam kung ano ending nung alitan pero deep inside me, TAKOT AKO. Ayaw ko ng nagaaway ee? Puro pa sila mura -.-

Haaaay :|

I hope everything would fade ng mabilis. SANA.

Ang hirap kasi kapag nageenjoy ka na ng life mo dahil nilibing ko na yung issue na yun which kagabi, HINUKAY ko ulet. Haaay :|

Buti na lang at nandyan mga kaibigan ko para magcomfort sakin. Alam ko masakit sa part nung girl na niloko siya, pero THAT TIME, masakit din sakin kasi di ko alam pwesto ko ..

At least now, masaya ako dahil alam kong may mga taong handang magsakripisyo para sakin dahil pinahahalagahan nila ako. Salamat sa kanila dahil di ko na masyadong iniisip ang mga bagay na ito. Dahil alam ko, balang araw, maayos din ito.

I'm not a stop along the way. I'm the destination.

2010-10-06T03:55:00.000-07:00

Wednesday October 6, 2010 --Well, that's it. All wrapped up.

PINGPONG! PINGPONG! PINGPONG!
Err. Today was my PE class and we had pingpong as subject. I hate it cause I'm not that used at playing it. And what sucks is that its going to be our finals! GAAAAAAAH! x(
I have to excel at playing PINGPONG! I HAVE TO! Wahahahaha!
Just practice and practice ..

Anyway, kanina sa van, i paid 40php tapos hindi ako sinuklian ng 5php kasi dapat talaga 35php lang sa van .. Wala lang. Parang napansin ko that time, may mga tao talaga na mandadaya para lang sa pera. Haaay. Wala ee? Sa mundo naten ngayon, ganun kalakas yung hatak ng pera sa pagiisip ng tao. Oo, kadalasan iniisip ko ang pera pero syempre, hindi pera yung nagpapasaya sakin araw araw ee? IKAW :"> Wahahha! BANAAAAAT! >:))
Jooooke. Wala lang, kala mo seryoso tung post nu? VICTIIIIM~! >:))))

AM GONNA BEAT YOU! >:)

You can't compare the replica from the original.

2010-10-05T06:32:00.000-07:00

Tuesday October 5, 2010 --Today was Awesome. I hope tomorrow's the same.

Cause maybe, you're the one that's gonna save me.
And after all, you're my wonderwall.

Today was totally awesome :) All according to plan(?) Waha. Even though kaninang umaga was some kind of a mess, my day still went well :>

Anyway, kanina sa while im travelling sa may van napansin ko yung isang metro aid. Wala lang, natuwa ako na naawa .. EWAN O.o Like kasi aga nila naglilinis ng isang malaking kalsada .. kasi sa bahay, ako puro reklamo magwalis ee MALIIT lang naman bahay namin tas sila, KALSADA -.-
Ayuun, naappreciate ko lang sila todayy :)

And speaking of appreciation ..
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY po sa lahat ng naging teacher koo!! :))
Kung di po dahil sa inyo, wala ako sa kinalalagyan ko ngayon ;) maraming salamat po sa inyo.

Wee~! Greeted some of my teachers sa FB din kanina na tagalog yung language, natawa mga DA classmates ko ee? :)) OO NA! AKO NAA! >:)
Speaking of them too, we ate at Insular Life kanina sa tapat ng school ko and there was this scenario where Kurt was asking for KARNE and i said, "Eto KANIN oh" .. LMAO!
Wahaha! All of them suddenly laughed. I thought it was KANIN so i told him that .. it was KARNE pala. Kainis, slang kasi nung pagkasabi ee? :)) pero it was a nice afternoon ;)
Wahahha! Lagi ako attention ng pantritrip nila, ERR -.-
pero well, BOYS WILL BE BOYS.

Ayuun, today also i changed my route going home .. I was soo kabado kasi I went to the other side of iAcademy, which was a new route for me talaga. I rode a BACLARAN bus .. and it didn't went kung saan ako bumababa .. buti nlng nakababa pa rin ako. Phew! kasi nung nakita ko na yung Savers, tas biglang lagpas na kami and its not going their way, so sabi ko sa kunduktor, "Kuya, iikot pa ba?" Waha. Tas sabi niya, hindi na daw. OUCH. Ayuun, buti na lang may PALIPARAN na jeep dun. Kaso JEEP! Err -.- so all the smoke and usok sa car napunta na sa akin. Wahaha! Well, okaay lang naman kasi when I was in HS, ganun ako magtravel. Namiss ko din yun ee? Waha! :)) At least, nakauwe pako ng safe :)

And when I got home, ayuun. All the people I want to chat with was ONLINE :>
Cooool, isn't it? Waha. I'm very blessed today. I really am. kaso nakalimutan ko baon ko kanina ee? Does that count as LUCKY? :)))

Waha. Anyway, I'm addicted to the song WONDERWALL by Oasis now and I don't know why too? >:) Maybe with the lyrics? I guess so. Wahahaha! What a day!
Hope to have a day like this tomorrow ;)
FUUUUUUUN~! :D

Dress me up, Buttercup :)

2010-10-04T03:11:00.000-07:00

Monday October 4, 2010 --Overrlooaddd!

Waha. So as usual, I was daydreaming about fashion and music and studies. Haha. And of course, again, I am blogging of my random thoughts. So today, I did many things (I think). Waha. Hmm .. today, I registered in FORMSPRING.ME but I disabled it as soon as my friend, FRANCIS, told me that was the biggest mistake am gonna make because it was stalker heaven. I also burned some DVD's in order for my MAC to have space. Haha. It's slowing down na rin kasi. Err.

Another is that, I changed my layout at tumblr :>

Weee~! Hope some of my follower would visit it. Waha.

I also cleaned our room kanina and it was okaaay cause mom did a lot more than I. Haha.

Funny cause she was saying that I should clean our room that ended SHE cleaning up our room. Wahahaha! :))) I LOVE MY MOM!

And now, the reason i am blogging because I want to share my thoughts about me having a collection of CHUCKS & DOLL SHOES :> Waha. Isn't that a cool collection? Waha. Well, i know its a bit expensive, but at least, something I could use at school ;) I've got four years to use them and doll shoes could be a help when i am at work(?) Waha. We still dont know but yep, i'm planning to have this collection, is that a great idea or not? Hmm ..

Anyway, another thought am having in my head is doing things in advance so i wouldn't panic :)

And that I would do a good job at updating our site at Facebook and learning more.

I also noticed that sometimes, its really good to appreciate the beauty from the outside world, even though I haven't been outside kanina, kasi I read something about appreciating simple things and how much we're missing out :) It's a cool article.

And again, as I surf the net, I saw some outfit that I think would fit me and my personality :)

Check them out! :))

I would wear this at school :>

Aren't they coool? *drools* Wahaha! Sana madami akong moolah para mabili ko lahat ng ito diba? :)))

Sapatos pa lang, SIBAAK nako ee? :)) Anyway, my birthday is coming soon :> Wee.

Sana may mga magregalo sakin. Wahaha! Well, yung mga gantu :))))

Ayuuun, I need USB and NEW EARRINGS! Err -.-

..And weird things are happening to me right now. Hahaha! Really funny :)))

Everything still lingers inside me.

2010-09-24T05:05:00.001-07:00

Friday September 24, 2010 --First Love.

Again, while traveling going to school, I was listening to the music " SHOOTING STAR" by Hale and Gosh, it brought back good and bad memories. It was hard to reminisce pero wala ee? My brain flash back everything. What is funny is that i was wearing the same shirt whom I was reminiscing about. Cool huh? Haha. Anyway, i started thinking about "what ifs" ..

What if I never pushed/harrassed him?

What if I was not jealous of others girls because i know back then, I was the one?

What if I never pushed him away just to know he'll pull me back?

What if we didn't lose contact and still became good friends after what had happened in the past?

What if I never did make him jealous just to assure myself he has feelings for me?

What if that time, I told him to choose me and not her, will it be alright?

Well, I guess that things will never be what you plan it to be. Sometimes, life disappoint but that doesn't stop us to enjoy it and make the fullness out of it. We just gotta hope for the better and trust the bigger picture that God made for us.

And yet inside of me, I wish I could've hugged him and told him the truth even if it hurts. I wish that I didn't wait for him to come back and expect him to have those same feelings back when we were still young. I regret everything I did when I let my pride rule over me. I regret it. I wish I could turn back time and change what I have done and maybe we still be gonna be alright. Talking about stuff like normal friends but because of our past, we can't pretend that we never had those feelings. We had it real but life won't let us be because of doubts and fear.

Today, I wanted to rant about this because it was all I could think of today. It was hard on me, maybe on him too but I know, someday, our paths would meet again and i will wait for that day to come and see if we still going to walk the same path or part ways from that day forward.

Moving on is hard but waiting for nothing is harder.

Nothing to rush.

2010-09-23T06:10:00.000-07:00

Thursday September 23, 2010 --Welcome 2nd term :)

"HE IS GAY ---->"

That's the sign for today. HAHA. Twas today until night came -.-

Kainis kapag hindi gets ng iba yung joke mo tas sila pa yung may ganang magalit. BV tologo ssir ..

Pero I won't let him ruin my day. I really had a nice day today. Nice talk with Jem and have seen my dearest DA11 family [love you guys!]>

and two of my friends said this pic is CUTE? Hahahaha! Funny, isn't it? Di ko rin makita kung ano kinacute neto ee? :))) Pero well, they made my day a BOOSTER :>

Thaaanks John and Nate! Hahaha. Will have starbucks tomorrow. Whoo~! EXCITED :>

No reason for me to be unafraid.

2010-09-20T06:21:00.000-07:00

Monday September 20, 2010 --Good vibes.

"Just remember:

someone else has it harder than you."

Fly black hearts into the sky.

2010-09-16T08:27:00.000-07:00

Thursday September 16, 2010 --HAPPY BIRTHDAY DYOSA! :)

"I know I can."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR FRIEND, JOANA MENDOZA aka DYOSA! :) Whooo~! Well, she wished for her birthday to be QUIET, it did! Wahaha! Good for you. Miski thanks nga sa mga text ko, walang reply ee? Haha. Anyway, not the actual reason why i blogged. Again, FRUSTRATIONS FRUSTRATIONS. Haha. Napansin ko, everytime i feel to blog, its about sadness and frustrations? Waha! Hmm .. Well, maybe thats the purpose of this? Something to rant my thoughts? Wahaha! So back to the topic, Uhh, so yeah. I'm frustrated, AGAIN.

So, here's my rants. I feel STUPID here at home. Yep, you heard me right duuude.

S-T-U-P-I-D. Not very nice, isn't it? I know right but whenever I'm at home, i feel I don't do anything right. Like maybe .. I don't know. Hmm ..

Maybe somethings lacking. or maybe because I'm too lazy?

Yeah, maybe that's it. What to do? What to do? 8-|

I was scolded by our "preacher" to watch my words because I posted something on my wall with the words "bitches and slut" in it which is I know is wrong. But i changed them ASAP naman ee? Anyway, the deal is that I feel and think I always FAIL at stuff. Yes, maybe those would make me STRONGER but duuuude, it hurts ee? I always wanted "them" to be happy pero again and again and again, I FAIL. That's why sometimes, I keep silent na lang so I would get hurt that much and hindi na humaba yung usapan or whatever. Ayuun, but syempre, in the back of my mind. it still lingers within me. The feeling and stuff .. I miss my childhood friends, my HS friends .. those were my COMFORT ZONES ee? Well, I remember the time when I was a kid, I tend to approach my parents for problems because I was bullied my someone but now .. I just don't know. We seem a bit away from each other now ee? Like my sis, she has her own world, I have mine and they have theirs which sometimes, build a WALL para kami makacommunicate. We live in a small house but we don't talk to each other as much. Weird, isn't it? It's not like we're angry with each other, it's just that we are too busy with things that we forget to hang out.

I miss those saturday hangouts where we could just chill out somewhere. I miss the times when my dad would say "Let's eat outside!" where he meant it LITERALLY and that we would have merienda in front of our house. I miss the times where we would not rush into going home and that we would stop by a coffee shop first and make kwentuhan for hours. I miss watching movies with them inside our parents bedroom where we would make siksikan kasi it's not that big naman. Haha. I miss our sister-talk everynight .. Well, maybe, they're not the only ones who lack time. Syempre, ako din nagkulang pero wala laang .. namiss ko lang itong mga simple things that make me happy. Haaay :| Those good times. Oh good times. So yeah, this is my rant for tonight. Ciao! :>

If I were just a little bit.

2010-09-02T18:59:00.000-07:00

Friday Septemeber 3, 2010 --It's hard to pretend that you're okay.

"Words are never easier."

Okaaay. I'm very frustrated right now. VERY frustrated. Why? I don't know. Maybe because again, with my grades? I'm failing. I'm becoming lazier and lazier each day. I'm supposed to have good grades because in my university I feel like it's just highschool here but for some reason, I still FAIL. I want to make my parents proud but for some reason, I just get beaten up by people and again, feel that self-pity and gain doubts of myself. Am i thinking too much or just stressed out? I don't know the answers(kahit sa tests ko di ko din alam mga sagot ee? Haha. BV.)

Today, I got 19/40 sa long test sa math. Great score, isn't it? You can't see me crying now, but inside of me I want to scream, "Why did I let this happen to me?" I'm ranting of what I'm feeling now. I need to be motivated. I need to be inspired but in a "hard-working" type of inspiration, not the one that would pull me down which is happening to me right now. Sadly, little by little ,I'm falling down. I'm failing. Andn I need to discover behind it. Yep, I need to know so that I could change it while its not yet bringing me totally down.

And again, I'm being attacked by my sickness called "JEALOUSY". I know right? It's bad but hey, I can't help it. It's what I feel ee? I can't avoid it. I keep comparing myself to others instead of minding my own business. Thinking on how to improve myself because MYSELF is what I want to defeat. How? Still discovering. I can't get out of this feeling ee? I need someone to tell motivate me. It was Ate Aela who inspired me but we are slowly drifting apart and I need to stand on my own feet. How can I be able to move forward? Guess, I would just need to ask GOD to help me and myself.

Pity me. Blah blah. I wish I was prettier, smarter, friendlier .. I wish I was better but maybe, God is telling me something. Maybe He is telling that some things I won't excel but should appreciate what I've got and make it better. Maybe He's telling me that I should stop comparing myself and know my priorities. College is tough. If you don't know how to stand on your own feet, you'll either be a parasite and be dependent on others or be a doormat, who'll be stepped on by others which is a lose-lose situation, isn't it? Maybe sooner or later if I won't be able to rebuild myself up, I would fall to the ground and be a doormat.

No one's assuming,I do.

2010-08-25T07:57:00.002-07:00

Wednesday August 25,2010 --Only promises and hopes .. but no plans.

Again, I was a little bit frustrated today. IDK whyy but yeah,a bit frustrated. Hmm ..

Maybe I should get some rehab? Hahaha! Kidding. I am jealous of one of my friends,and I know it is bad but .. HAAAY :|

Need to see what are my STRENGTHS, not weaknesses. ARGH. So help me GOD.

Sometimes, things come from the most unlikely places.

2010-08-24T08:13:00.000-07:00

Tuesday August 24,2010 --Expect the unexpected.

I won a singing contest. My FIRST SINGING CONTEST. Whew.

All thanks to Angela Grace Garong & Karen Cate Arabit. Nice one guys.

Anyway, many things had happened during the month.

Many headaches and stressful days but at the end of the day, it still makes me smile :)

Why? Maybe because the things happening around me isn't what I wished for but is happening to me. And for that, I thanked GOD. I feel so blessed at this moment. But regarding my grades,not so sure :|

Many things should be done and yet I procrastinate.Waha! I know its wrong but ..

Well, I'm a teenager ee? Wahahaha! (Lame excuse.) Anyhoo, lemme elaborate some of the things I need: A BEAUTY REGIME. That's it! That's what I need right now to release my stress ._.

But to my dismay, I lack moolah. (Could anybody donate some?) Wahaha!

Another story is that, this week, there was this HOSTAGE in a bus and I was very afraid :|

I commute everyday na kasi and I don't know what to do if ever that happens to me. Well, as of now, I should just pray and hope that our country wouldn't cause any humiliation like this again.

Past can be a great place to visit but not a good place to stay.

2010-08-14T07:47:00.001-07:00

Saturday August 14,2010 --We can't rewrite history.

Ang dami kong kwento pero I'm tooo lazzzyyy to elaborate ee? Ayuun, we just had our acquaintance party and they were like, "WOAAAH!" And I was like, "Uhh .." hahaha!

Anyway, regarding my post, a lot of things had happened. They were weird moments, sad and happy. I guess, that's life. Hahaha.

There are people who confuses our life, who gives us the benefit of the doubt. I don't know if it's a gift or a curse. ARGH. Me and my college bestfriend, Abby, talked about risks and consequences and about decision making(?).

SORRY. Suddenly, I felt lazzyy and sleepy ._.

Ktnxbye.

Remember my name, you'll be screaming it later.

2010-08-03T00:31:00.000-07:00

August 3, 2010 --Love is not a game.

"The reason I need hugs so much is to know that I am important.

That for a moment, I am the one in someone's arms & no one else can come between.

No competition.

No other,

Possessive but sweet."

A dream is a wish your heart makes.

2010-07-30T18:28:00.000-07:00

August 1, 2010 --Dreams are private myths.

Okaaay. So last July 30, 2010 I had a dream. Aaand, it was a WEIRD dream. I dreamt of Bie, Shey and the extra, MA. HAHAHA! So here's the story ..

Once upon a time .. Kidding.

Anyway, imma start already :)

It's Shey's birthday that day and he went to iAcademy.

I was hiding .. and he was looking for me!

HAHAHAHA! He talked to Abbie and looked for me.

Funny thing cause in reality, it won't happen. Wahahaha!

Maybe, dreams are really just a myth ;)

P.S.

Where is MA there? Of course, at behind the back of Shey. HAHAHA!

The camera never lies. Except it always does.

2010-07-30T00:34:00.001-07:00

July 30, 2010 --Happiness is momentary.

Hollaaa! :))))

Ayuuun, I have received my midterm grades and its all OKAAAY naman except for PSYCHOLOGY :| Which I got 2 na. Haaay :|

But its okaay, because I can still can make habol to my grades. Ahe. Anyway, a lot is happening to me, again. Hmm? What to tell? Hmm ..

We had a one week argument with Dad; Confiscated my Mac, and all my money. And I again, I have to regain their trust again. When we finally talked with each other, we talked about TRUST and focusing in my goals in life which is to have good grades and to be at least a CUMLAUDE. Yep, that's a hard task to do but if I worked hard and as long I hold on to that goal, I know, I'll be just fine.

Finally said it, now, I have to lessen my social time and concentrate on studies. For now, I am attending Rhythm practices but later on be inactivate cause this Acquaintance Day (Aug.7) if ever, I get picked today for our "CUT" session, would be the last time I would dance for Rhythm, maybe. I hate to go but it's what I need. I guess, I really have to focus now ..

Anyway, this week, I have received another confession from a guy .. Haha! Funny isn't it? Cause when I was in Highschool, yeah, I get a lot of confessions too but not like this. Haha! What's the difference? My highschool friends know me already so if ever they have a crush on me, it's just for a moment cause they know I don't have time for romantic momentum. Hahaha! Pero now, of course, I'm in college, i am starting to discover stuff about life and teenage life and whatsoever :)

But I should still have to have the consent of my parents. Hihihi :">

To end this post, I want to share to my readers that I'm Happy in what is happening to me right now even though I have some bumps in the past, I am still enjoying life and treating everyday as an adventure where I could discover a lot o f things in world where I could bring it forever in my heart ♥

People come and go.

2010-07-12T06:21:00.000-07:00

Monday July 12, 2010 --Lost and insecure, YOU FOUND ME.

"Your everything."

I am not stupid. I'm just intelligently disabled.

2010-07-11T11:30:00.000-07:00

Monday July 12, 2010 --Happy Birthday, ANNA CARMELA DAGUIL!

As for the title, please disregard of it.
Hehe. Uhh, I'm just at my limit lang ..
Again, expressing my agony here at my haven.
Okaaay, so let me start.

Lately, I've been feeling down. Whyy? Cause i thought my parents are comparing me to one of my dearest classmate and that I cannot overcome him but it doesn't bother me that he's the top of the class, the one that bothers me is that he always teases me and that I'm the one who's to be under. UNDER. Yep, i think that he thinks of me that way. But well, that's just life.
I know, I lack of many things but he doesn't have to say it to my face kasi it will only lower my self-confidence .. But thanks to him, I am trying my best to improve myself. I know, he was only trying to make me mature but I hope not like this but oh well, that's his way of telling me this things. HAHA. Funny way, isn't it?

And again, I've been grounded by my parents for the whole first sem. Whyy? Cause I've made a mistake that I didn't tell them that I would be meeting up with some of my friends at ATC. I almost got lost but thanked God, I didn't. Meron dun sa jeep pinagtawanan ako kasi lagpas na pala ako ng ATC, pero well, My baaaad. First time ko magcommute mag-isa na walang directions. Ayun, salamat sa buhay at buhay pa ako. HAHA!

Tomorrow, another day. Another day of mistakes, of lessons. Haaay *sigh* Life oh life, why do you have to be so hard? BV :|

ANNA CARMELA L. DAGUIL

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my dearest friend!
Stay pretty as you are right now and always ask God for guidance.
I LOVE YOU! :*<3

Pain is inevitable; Suffering is optional.

2010-07-08T08:29:00.000-07:00

Thursday July 8, 2010 --I'm just shy to admit.

We'll never know what happens next.

What is with today that makes me unsure of all things?
FRIENDS? BOYS? MYSELF?
Whew -.-
Again, I'm starting to doubt myself again.
Why oh Why?
Many things stacked up in my mind.
Blogging about how i feel.
I feel like ..
BURSTING OUT!
Don't wanna go to school tomorrow.
Want to SCREAAAAAM! X(

We'll never know what happens next.

2010-07-07T06:35:00.000-07:00

Wednesday July 8, 2010 --Should've tried harder

People who easily gets angry at me, gets on my nerves sometimes.
I feel like, they just want me to have INSOMNIA every night.
Okaaay, so that was a BLAST?
Ktnxbye.

Speechless. Tongue tied. Fingers crossed.

Coffee and cakes :)

2010-07-03T06:39:00.000-07:00

July 3, 2010 Saturday --So let me slip away.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BES SASHI! :))
So we celebrated his birthday sa Bo's Coffee sa may tapat ng school ko. HAHAHA! Okaaay naman, first time daw niyang ganun ee? HAHA! FUUUN naman :)
Puro kami lakad today. Tas nakita pa namen yung LOST TWIN BROTHER niya? :)) FUNNNY talaga! HAHAHA! Sayang nga lang walang matinong picture. HAHAHA! Nakatalikod lang sila. Kainis kasi, mga maarte! HAHAHA! Tas nagkampihan pa na asarin ako? GALING ee? :)))
Pero saya naman sila kasama. Yun isang twin(Jem), nilibre ako ng LUNCH. Yung isa naman(Shi), AKO yung nanglibre. AHAHAA! Galing ee no? Pero may binili rin naman kami ni Bes ng cool na shirt. HAHHA! Kala mo sasayaw kami eee? :))))) FUNNY! Pero cute yung print. tas ayun, napagkasunduan na once a week?, sabayan niya ako :) NICE, isn't it? HAHAA! Parang bonding naman sa mga times na di kami nagkita? HAHA.

Ano pa ba? Ayun, wala kaming class sa PE kaya maaga kami pinadismiss. NYAHAHAA! Maaga din kami pinauwe. LUCKY tlga lan siguro ako naun. HAHAHA! Kahapon kasi ang MALAS koo. ERR :|
pero forget it naa! HAHAHA! mas okaaay today :D Puro ako tawa ee? Lalo na nung uwian? GRRABE nga lang yung nilakad namen ni Bes. HAHAHA! Parang nagmarathon ako ng wala sa oras ee? Hahhaa! Practice daw yun? HAHAH! Nice. Di ako makaget over. AMP :))) Magkamukha tlga yung dalawa ee? HAHHA! FUUUUN naman! Tas kasabay ko pa yung kambal? HAHAHAHA! WHOOO~!

Ayun, speechless na siguro ako naun kung gaano ka FUUUN ang day na ito. Basta, I thank God for this day! :D GOD BLESS.

Here are some pictures sa mga tinutukoy ko :)))

Halatang napipilitan lang ee? Tsk. Tsk.

The Gift. HAHAHA! Parang kanta lang ee? :D

Yan yung pumunta pa kami ng Dept. Store para lang magpiktyur. HAHAHA! Natatawa samin yung saleslady ee? Nyahaha! Sabi ko na lang, sasayaw kami. NYAHAHA!

Ang nanglibre sakin nung LUNCH :D Weee~! Thaaanks Jem. Kaso maarte din kasi, CAMERA SHY kuno. HAHA!

ANG MAGKAMBAL.
Bow :)

To be happy, you shoudn't be too concerned to others.

2010-06-27T07:17:00.000-07:00

Sunday June 27, 2010 --Make or Break

About COLLEGE:
COLLEGE Oh, COLLEGE!
Hahaha! Funny. I'm in college na, still haven't got to my nerves though.
HAHAHA! Got new friends, new place, new environment ..
At first, I felt UNHAPPY, cause I miss my highschool friends but after some time,
I adjusted to the atmosphere and made new amigos. WHOOO~!
Been called "APPLES" by my Professor at Economics ..
And about my grades?
As of now, I have passed all the quizzes and homeworks.
AS OF NOW! HAHAHA!
"Dadating din tayo dyan ..
Wag magmadali."
Currently elected as the Secretary of DA11(my beloved section).
Nothing's special except for a few changes like commuting, which i'm not used to.
And being not that maingay. Hehe. WEIRD, isn't it?
i mean, i don't RAWR like a monster at school. Just laugh and make stories to my friend, ABIIEEE and Kurt :)
Love theeem <3<3 style="font-weight: bold;">DANCING:
I'm not sure if I would join "RHYTHM" ..
but I like dancing ..
But as of now, my self tells me not suppose to.
Haaaay :|
Torn between my self ang ego ..
I want to join but .. IDK!
I'm not sure of anything. I'm confuse if i should still audition. Got 2 weeks to decide ..
So help me GOD.

About TIME MANAGEMENT:
IDK. I'm not happy about my schedule at school ..
I have problems because my saturdays won't ever be the same again :c
But I would just think of this as a challenge.
I know this is hard but as i always say, "MAY MAGAGAWA PA BA AKO?"
So there. Gotta bear with it or DIE.

About ME & Goals in Life:
"Am i gonna make it or just break the rules?" Hmm ..
I don't have any direction as of now .. I admire my classmates for having huge goals in life.
But me? I'm not sure of anything.
I don't know what I want. I would only think of graduating without any ambition. That's it.
My mom would always tell that she's frustrated in me cause I don't have any ambition or goal. She feels that I'm just being a Happy-go-Lucky girl but of course, I'm still thinking about what I should do in the future. And that I'm not yet sure. I still have to find my interests. I have a lot things in mind but time or moments would allow me to. So I just have to wait and WAIT(?) ..
Hmm. Maybe do something productive before that thingy pops into my head and time would allow me to do it :)
So First, gotta finish my studies and help in the business and later on move on with what I really want. Hope I could do that.

"Keep on Chasing Pavements"

OFFLINE

2010-05-12T11:03:00.000-07:00

Wednesday May 12, 2010 --I never told you

And after tonight, we could Breathe the air we're supposed to live in.
GOODBYE?

Busy Bee

2010-04-28T06:56:00.000-07:00

Wednesday April 28, 2010 --I can't wait to ..

"Eat a cupcake and KICK ASS"

As you have observed, i tend to blog a lot of LISTS. Hehe. I love ranting about things i want to do in my life but really can't do so i POST it and eventually, PROCRASTINATE, which is really my weak point. Right now, I'm going to blog about the things which had happened in my life in this past few weeks (lemme see if i can still remember) ..

First, TBA(Team Building Activity) in our youth was a SUCCESS. Next, my dad was confined at ASIAN Hospital for 2 days .. Many had happened pa ee? Like yung interview namen sa U.S Embassy which was a SUCCESS din. We've been praying for about a month na rin na sana ma-accept yung Visa namen, na ayun nga, thanked God, it was :)

Anu pa ba? Hmm .. Meron ding kagumbalgumbal news like SPACE daw sina Superman and her girl .. CONFUSE CONFUSE .. I DONT KNOW!

Ayun, madami ding places ang napuntahan ko this April .. SUPER HECTIC nga ng summer ko ngayon, AS IN! We worked in our store and have commission .. We went to Manila Ocean Park for the second time kasi Birthday ng aking cute na cousin na si Ube .. Went to Paradiso with few of my TAMBULI family and went swimming :) Also had my confession this month, tas we also had our Daan ng Krus in different churches .. Meron din kaming uhmm .. Sportsfest sa PDCC which was FUN naman :)

pero matindi talaga yung TBA! HAHAHA! :) UBE FUN! :D Daming events na nangyare .. tas ang pinakahighlight talaga para sakin ee yung kinausap ako ni Kuya Mon about my behavior which was a GOOD THING :) he told me na i was becoming mature na daw and was serving God with all my heart ..

"Dati, ikaw yung batang nagshoshowcase lang ng talent .. Now, you're showcasing your talent for the Lord .. "

LUMAKI ULO ko ee? HAHA. pero swear! ang saya ko nung time na yun .. Di lang halata :">

Ayun, ano pa ba? Hmm .. Ayun, natatawa ako kay Sis kasi may nagkakagusto sa kanya sa may Photoline .. pero crush lang, ayun .. todo tukso ako .. PIKON naman :)))

Love life ko? Masaya na SIMPLE lang :)))) Ewan. Siguro, dahil hindi ako masyadong seryoso sa area na 'tu .. kaya ayun, ENJOY lang. SINGLE ee? :))) Its so nice to be SINGLE :) Sana marealize ng mga kabataan yun, pero dun sa mga may jowa na, i'm not encouraging you to make BREAK-UPs with you other half .. For me lang, mas okaay yung SINGLE :)

So, here's another list of the things i want and need :)

please bear with me na lang ..

i enjoy doing these kind of stuff ee? :D

Needs

★Pedicure & Manicure

★a HAIRCUT

★Lots and lots of ..

--Sando

--Shorts

--Leggings

--Pants (Skinny/Capri)

★Ankle Socks

★NEW EYEGLASSES

★a pair of sunglasses

★2 pairs of gladiator sandals/ slippers

WANTS

★New Cellphone :))

★Tees

★Make-up for my college life

★ALDO Shoes

So there goes my ..

EVERYTHING.

Game over, B*TCH!

2010-04-15T06:42:00.000-07:00

Thursday April 15, 2010 --The most important things are hard to say.

"Enjoy the little things."

Okaaaay, i dont know what to blab about today but I just feel like blogging. HAHA. anyway, PBB Teen Edition is interesting now but the girl named "TRICIA" is like effin FLIRT! ERR. pero she;s pretty, i can tell.

So i'm starting my SUMMER JOB since last week and it was fun naman kahit papaano .. tas nagswimming kami ng TAMBULI kahapon and we had this kind of "WAR" na papatong sa shoulders ng boy yung girls ee 5 lang kaming girls .. Ahaha! FUN FUN! :D

Then whta about now? Hmm ..

dami kong naiisip pero i don't know how to organized it ee? Bukas naman, im going to get my good moral tomorrow sa WC and yung reward sa Lion King. So many had happened, pero guess im too lazy to make kwento lahat? HAHAHA! Anyway, just wanted to blab something :)

I'm feeling nothing kasi .. to be exact. not TOO HAPPY, not TOO SAD .. :|

Untitled.

2010-04-10T11:03:00.000-07:00

Sunday April 11, 2010 --UNFAIR.

"Life sucks."

And i gotta move on.

Ktnx. Bye.

We Change. We Wait.

2010-04-09T06:14:00.000-07:00

Friday April 9, 2010 --SUMMER waves HELLO!

"Deep summer is when laziness finds respectability. "

So here goes my never ending story :)

HAHAHA! I miss blogging. Been very busy lately (as usual) ..

anyway, what are the things that would make my summer a BLAST? :)

list list LISTS!! :D:D

the things i need to accomplish BEFORE I enter my COLLEGE LIFE :)

1. Learn to cook at least 5 dishes.

2. Have to have many pants, leggings and tees :)

3. Need to go to the US!

Few pa lang yan ..

kinda LAZY to blog na naman .. ERR.

anyway, imma blog again tomorrow, okaaay?

FAIL.FAIL.FAIL.

2010-02-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

Monday March 1, 2010 --My only time to say ..

Today, i didn't get to school cause I woke up late and I'm not allowed to go to school na kasi I promised Dad na i will go with the school bus everytime. Kasi last time i was late, i commuted which is AYAW ni Dad but still he said he will permit me to commute pero this time, i abused his kindness.

I was so touched about kay Mom kasi she made a solution para mapasa ko yung Project ko sa El Fili. Grabe, she made all the plans para lang mapasa ko talaga yun. THANKS MOM! :)

Ayun, so what i did today was purely CLEANING THE HOUSE & SLEEP. ARGH. so I now have time to rant. Maybe this would be a long post eh? :)

So i haven't posted on the month of Feb, right? HAHAHA! been to so much stress lately. HAHAHA! anyway, yesterday i told SUPERMAN i would make "IWAS" na to him .. HAHAHA! FUNNY cause i was just doing the same thing to him .. maybe on APRIL, i would contact him again? HAHAHA! i'm losing my focus na din kasi but it's not about him, it's ME. ERR.

I don't know my priorities anymore. I need to REGAIN MYSELF and re-focus on the things i need for college and for my future. I tend to ENJOY things around me lately that I've forgotten what are my goals in life.

I felt like I'm a L-O-S-E-R now cause i don't have that much achievement compared to last year. I envy my Bestfriend for having a cool relationship with her special someone, i envy my Sister because of what she is achieving right now, i envy my pretty classmates cause they can get suitors in no time, I ENVY ..

But they don't know about this cause i hide my feelinsg thru SMILING. yep, i also do that. ALWAYS. Just to make them stop asking me, "OK KA LANG?". EMO ee noh? HAHAHA! anyway, i should re-focus again! But every time i try to re-focus, I get tempted again and become LAZY and start to PROCRASTINATE. Which I have been doing for months now ..

What should i do? ERR.

So many things I WANT but can't get them because i tend to choose the "PANANDALIANG KALIGAYAHAN". gets? I mean, i always choose the happiness which would only last for a while instead of WAITING and get the happiness i really want. Maybe because I get tired of waiting and tried to make things my way and HIS. I should've trust HIM rather than insisting things to go MY WAY ..

Note-to-self: W A I T.

That's just it. I just have to be patient and be willing to endure all these things first before completely having the WONDERFUL things that GOD has to offer me :)

B: Why is it hard to TRUST people? G: Why is it hard to keep a PROMISE?

2010-02-10T23:23:00.001-08:00

Thursday February 11, 2010 --Don't Ask.

PATIENCE.

Okaaay. So I have read a short article entitled, "15 signs that you're meant to be".
Here's the scope.

1. You tell him things you don't tell anyone else.
We don't mean blurting something out when you're emotionally unstable, but the desire to tell him intimate details about your life means you trust him -- a major component of successful long-term love.

2. You let her see you in moments of weakness.
It's easy to be happy with someone when you're feeling good about life. But what about when you're not doing so well? Do you want to see her when you've been denied a raise, or your cat died, or you had a plain old bad day? She should be a comfort during tough times, not a burden.

3. You respect him.
You don't want to change the essence of who he is. There may be stuff that irritates you in everyday life -- he insists on wearing his favorite holey T-shirt, he eats sugar cereal for dinner, he still watches Saturday morning cartoons -- but you like him, plain and simple.

4. You want him to meet your parents.
You feel proud of him and you want to show him off -- as opposed to feeling like you have to make excuses for him.

5. You can imagine a future together.
You don't have to practice writing your first name with his last name, but do you periodically let your mind wander to picture a life together? Is it amazing?

6. You're not afraid to disagree with him.
You know that even if you fight, he'll listen to you and won't brush you off. He takes you seriously, even when he thinks you're wrong.

7. You want to work out your major differences.
If you do have crucial differences that will impact your future together -- different opinions about religion, money, or something else -- you want to work them out with him, and you believe you can come to a conclusion that will satisfy both of you.

8. You laugh together.
Laughter is one of life's simplest pleasures -- you should definitely be able to crack each other up.

9. You're incredibly, utterly, surprisingly attracted to her.
Physical chemistry is an undeniably important ingredient in a healthy relationship. And if she's not a classic beauty or your usual "type"? Even more reason to think she's the one.

10. It's OK to be quiet around her.
You don't feel like you have to fill the space between you with chatter or other interaction. Instead, you feel an easy comfort.

11. You feel like yourself around him.
You don't feel like you have to edit your thoughts; you're not self-conscious or anxious.

12. You need him the right amount.
You long for him -- but not too much. Some neediness is good, but too much breeds discontent.

13. You don't feel too jealous.
You're comfortable with him going out with his friends -- even female friends. You let each other have your own lives and hobbies.

14. You feel like she makes you a better person.
She makes you feel smart, funny, attractive, creative -- like the best version of yourself. You feel like she brings out and complements the best parts of you.

15. She just gets you.
Sometimes it's that easy. You feel like she understands some essential part of you that you can't explain or articulate. It's a warm, comfortable feeling -- and one you should have with the person you marry.

So, i think that maybe, just MAYBE, he's feeling SOME of those signs but not ALL. So, assumingly, HE'S NOT MEANT FOR ME. HAHAHA! Funny 'cause i have butterfies everytime i hear his name, but i think that because of the word " CRUSH", right? and that's all it would be. He has someone also waiting for him for about three years na rin so i can't just BUTT-IN and say, "hey, I LIKE YOU." and all that. Its just rude to the girl. And mind you people, that girl im referring to is someone i really respect. So, i LIMIT my actions towards him because i know for myself that he has SOMEONE.

CONFUSION arise.

and because of that, i am now 'falling' into his deep hole of LIES and PRETENSION. ERR. and that's a sign of NO-NO or BACK OFF. i know, i should not have communicate with him anymore and that our so called- "friendship" would just have to end for a meantime because right now, ME and HIM are having complications in MIND. gets? We know by heart that we're doing WRONG things and that we should STOP but because of that "panandaliang-kaligayahan", we still continue because we enjoy each other's company. He already told me he is having confusions about US, note: US. Ee wala naman talagang dapat ika-confuse kasi we're just CHUMS and that means we'r just FRIENDS pero yun nga, may nabubuo na kasing something .. ATA? .. i don't know. i am not sure of everything na. All i know is that, for now, I'M HAPPY. and if that someone or something would get that happiness from, i guess i just have to LET GO of that 'happiness' and create another happiness of my own. I don't need SOMEONE to make me happy. HAPPINESS is a CHOICE. and even though that 'prince charming' wouldn't make me happy, i guess, maybe, i should look for FROGS who'll end up loving me in return :)

Randome #2 :'(

2010-02-05T01:10:00.001-08:00

Friday February 5, 2010 --I'M JEALOUS, can't get it? :(

"you're always there for me, aren't you?"

not of a BOY.

but of my BESTFRIEND. :'-(

i felt like i'm LEFT BEHIND.

but i know, i'm not LEFT ALONE.

Toast for a brand new YEAR :)

2010-01-02T06:56:00.001-08:00

Sunday January 03, 2010 --My NEW Wishlist :)

a pair of gladiator sandals

a SHOE RACK

a "like this" accessory

a MAC laptop

iPOD :)

Collection of Korean Dresses :)

a "like this" accessory!

ripped leggings

and of course ..

PEACE. LOVE :)

There's no such thing as Love. it's a Fantasy.

2010-01-02T06:54:00.000-08:00

Saturday January 02, 2010 --New Year's Resolution '10 :)

so what are the things that are installed for me this year? hmm ..

anyway, i must MUST have a New Year's Reso even though i think that my life now is just .. uhmm ..

P E R F E C T.

haha. not mentioning everything that happened during my christmas vacation which is im going to post SOON :)

so lemme start with my 10 PLANS rather New Year Reso:

#1 Be more appreciative of what others give you.

#2 Be more sensitive to others.

#3 Do good in COLLEGE :)

#4 SLEEP before 12midnight.

#5 Solve your ACNE problems. Err. Its getting on my nerves X(

#6 Read the Bible EVERYDAY.

#7 Learn how to Drive and Cook before the year ends.

#8 Still Have NO BOYFRIEND but yet date boys :)

#9 Be MYSELF. ENJOY LIFE. MORE MEMORIES.

#10 Have more ACHIEVEMENTS and ACCOMPLISHMENTS.

so there are my WICKED PLANS. kidding >:)

Hope i can do those things.

I know there are quite simple but for me they're BIG.

haha. Honestly, i love my life now just the way it is but of course, we need UPGRADES as years pass by.

to make it MORE ENJOYABLE and happier moments are made :)

FRAGILE.

2009-12-18T08:57:00.000-08:00

Friday December 18, 2009 --LOST and Found :)

We fear R E J E C T I O N.

We want A T T E N T I O N.

We crave for A F F E C T I O N.

and dream for PERFECTION :)

Things he SHOULD be doing :)

2009-12-15T03:19:00.000-08:00

Tuesday December 15, 2009 --My 100th post!

Simple but meaningful :)

CONFIRMED.

2009-12-10T06:14:00.000-08:00

Thursday December 10, 2009 --Confirmed.

And yes, it was CONFIRMED.

yeah.

it was HE who told me that is was HER he chose :)

If you're done working hard,

why not try working a little harder? :)

The thing with CRUSHES is that, they CRUSH you in the end.

2009-12-01T07:03:00.000-08:00

Tuesday December 1, 2009 --First Date of the Last Month of the Year

See? PROVED you, IM RIGHT :)

So it's better to STOP "crushing" someone before it crushes ~~YOU.~~

While girls doodle hearts; i scribble tiny stars, wishing for YOU.

2009-11-27T04:00:00.000-08:00

Friday November 27, 2009 --Tikas PENGA! XD

ayun, watta a day! daming kailangan gawin bout again,

PROCRASTINATING.

ayun, tinatamad pa ako ee .. just updating :)

"no text message. no PM's. NOTHING."

Situations aren't complicated, people are.

2009-11-24T08:15:00.001-08:00

Wednesday November 25, 2009 --ERR.

i’ve always wanted to see if i could fly, knowing i’d just fall.

i’m just way too afraid of the consequences.

NONSENSE.

2009-11-24T08:01:00.000-08:00

Tuesday November 24, 2009 --SUE-perman

THE END.

AKO NA LANG LAGI.

2009-11-22T04:25:00.000-08:00

Sunday November 22, 2009 --AKO NA LANG LAGI.

Why is it always ME? WHY.

ERR. Nakakasawa na ha. puro na lang AKO. AKO. AKOO.

ako na lang laging pinapagalitan ..

lalo na si Manang. KAINIS!

ginamit ko lang yung CP nia for like, 5mins, AKO na nakasira.

GRR ha .. di na talaga ako nakapagpigil sa kanya .. KAINIS!

Napupuno na talaga ako ..

di ku na kinaya ngayon kaya sumagot na ko.

AMP. i feel bad kasi sinagot ku siya pero .. ERR tlga na feel ku kanina :(

SORRY.

UNTITLED.

2009-11-18T07:07:00.000-08:00

Wednesday November 18, 2009 --HAPPY BIRTHDAY BHEZ :)

Read the bottom of the picture, ALOUD.

Okaaay. Maybe you're wondering what's this post about.
Its about a FRIEND who i so called "SUPERMAN" because of his name :)
I just wanted to share that we had a 'baby-fight' today and it was .. uhmm ..
NONSENSE.

well, thats the right word, i must say.
it really bugs me because the moment i told him that he was somewhat uhmm ..
DEMANDING na, he started to act like .. UGH.
and i was like .. GAAAAAH!

get it? i was so pissed off because of the things i said to him that made him feel and be like that.
he was so ANNOYING when we were chatting ..
he doesn't want to be called ANNOYING pero he was like doing it on purpose.
Anyway, i know that he doesn't care that much about me cause we're NOT that close naman ..
We were just texting each other .. but note: WE KNOW EACH OTHER .. by names.

Sadly, we (I) went to bed arguing ..
i mean, we went to bed not with smiles on our faces but with doubts and guilt in our hearts ..
i don't know if he feels the same which i doubt.

We were chatting with NONSENSE things na ..
like puro na siya kalandian and stuff ..
FUNNY cause one moment we're like so drama and the other we were like uhmm ..
FRIENDS again.

ARGH. i hope he won't change.
He "promised" me kasi that he ould change ee ..
for the WORSE(?) i think ..
pero i really hope we could still have yung times of asaran and kwentuhan with nothing hindering us to share anything ..
i just want us to be translucent as friends :)

And by the way, if you were thinking that 'somethings' going on between us,
you're DEAD WRONG, okaaay?
don't tell me that i didn't clear that out, okaaaay? :)

Truly, he isn't SUPERMAN.

But hey!
if you're asking me if uhmm .. i liked him or what ..
maybe i would say, "YES".
Who wouldn't?
SWEET (because he's FLIRTY)
KIND (again, because he's FLIRTY)
and a BASKETBALL PLAYER :)

HAHAHHAHA! yep, that's all i like about him ..
KIDDING! of course other aspects like uhmm .. being nice and at the same time, EVIL >:)
i liked him when he was not like so DRAMA and FLIRTY.
i liked him when he is just HIM.
Just making corny jokes and being makulet.
but sadly, he was going to change that NOW.

Waiting(?) for SUPERMAN.

RANDOME.

2009-11-04T05:39:00.000-08:00

Wednesday November 4, 2009 --Playboy

Hang out, pretend and play with them. Have fun and stop anytime. No attachment + no commitment = NO PAIN! Convenient isn’t it? But at the end of the day, you know you are still searching for something genuine. You realize that what you are really looking forward to is having someone who can look at you straight in the eyes and tell you he loves you.

Nothing much to say :|

Dear Heart, I met a boy. Prepare to S H A T T E R.

Randome.

2009-10-20T04:29:00.000-07:00

Tuesday October 20, 2009 --Random-slash-Rants.

I LOOOOOOVE MYSELF, don't I?

okaaay. im being saaaarcastic again. and im a PROCRASTINATOR now. UGH.
And now, AGAIN my friends, I AM NOT FEELING GOOD ABOUT MYSELF.
Sadly, at the end of the day i can' resist comparing and gaaaah! just hate it when i hear people belittle me. it really hurts my feelings even though i joke around just to let them know IM OKAAAY. but namaaan!! can't they see im already making self-pity .. ?

poor me. many things need to improve OR rather want to improve?
yeah. maybe im just being PARANIOD and all but ..
it really bugs me when people especially the ones who i call my friends, told me how UH-GLEH i am and how a specific person is much much better than ME. gaaaaad! i accept that there are people that are yes, MUCH BETTER me in some way but to POINT OUT my weakness all the time and kulang na lang isubsub mukha ku sa "MAS MAGALING SIYA" floor. a very degrading evening. and now, im supposed to do my homeworks but here i am, again, PROCRASTINATING :)

i want to CHANGE. but how? how can i start? how ..?
ever felt or experienced that you are so determined to do something and very eager to achieve that but can't do it DAILY or has not become your habit? or wrote things in a paper, post it on a wall and just pass by it but you know in your heart that you have to do something?

i've searched something on the internet and here i got these cool(?) messages and advices to love myself:

★Fall in Love with YOURSELF.
★Eliminate Self-Criticism.
★Be Kind and OPTIMISTIC.
★Acknowledge your effort.
★LET GO OF WORRY.
★Trust and Forgive yourself.
★Be True to yourself.
★Grow Spiritually.
★Express gratitude.
★Nurture your dreams.
★Boost your SELF-CONFIDENCE.
★Relax.
★Have FUN.
★LOOK AFTER OUR BODY.

see? i really need to work on my ass right now. AHAHHA! gaaaah! so gotta go people.
need to do a lot LOOKING AFTER MY BODY and LOVING MYSELF .. to death! HAHAHA! tataa! *winks*

Laugh-slash-Fun Day.

2009-10-04T07:06:00.001-07:00

Sunday October 4, 2009 --Happy Birthday Tatay! :)

Blissful Morning

I woke up very early this morning `cause we're supposed to go to SM Las Pinas for the blessing of our 3rd branch that just opened last Ocotber 2 :)

We were so panicked that i forgot to do the #2 *winks* so, i got in the car with messy hair .. anyway, that;s not the reason why it's Blissful. During the blessing of the Shop, i'm feeling that my uhmm .. is aching. so i started to perspire. NYAHAHA! anyway, its still not the blissful part.

Here it goes. After the blessing of our shop, we went inside the newly structured SM. I was with

My Sister, Rhobz and cousin, Shobe ..

and we were WOW-ed by it cause even though it was small, it looked clean and organized. That is the only mall i know that SM don't have cinemas. You can't go there for 'gala', you need a specific purpose cause you'll only get bored when you get there. Anyway, back to the blissful part [im talking a lot again.] .. We saw that it was generated with WALKALATOR. so we tried it.

During the ride,

Apol:*pats the shoulder of Rhobz* Oh Rhobz, ingat ka baka gumulong ka .. At ikaw Shobe, *placed my hand around her shoulders* baka gumulong ka ..
Shobe: Oh ikaw ate, ingat ka din baka matapakan ka ..

.. and then laughs REALLY HARD. and that doesn't end our blissful morning. When we went inside the SM again for the second time, someone at the door gave us a MAP.

yes, A MAP! we laughed again, real hard. WHY?

because as if we're going to be lost in that small mall. HAHAHA! but we get the point why they gave us that, its just that .. it was the first point of view that came to my mind :)

Crazy Afternoon

This would be only be very short.

My parents asked me and Rhobz to commute from the intersection area in Salawag until we get to our house. We rode a TRICYCLE. :)

I was laughing inside my head `cause whenever Rhobz would open her LOUD mouth, the driver would look at us and pulls his brakes.

But that doesn't end my Crazy Afternoon, the tricycle we are riding on was a bit, maybe, OLD FASHIONED already cause the moment we hit the road where we are supposed to go UP, the Tricycle started to S T O P.

as in, STOP ENGINE. (tumirik) gets? HAHAHA! it was funny cause the driver repeatedly says, " Ate, wait lang ha .." then turns around .. again, the engine stopped.

and because we were just meters away from our home, we decided to just walk na lang. But he still insisted on riding us home, i said, "naku kuya. baka abutin pa tayo ng siyam-siyam kaka-'ate, wait lang' .. " so we walked home. and when the moment we were no longer siting inside his Tricycle, the engine started :)

and lastly, Insane Evening

I was memorizing my speech in English when i started to sing my last song, "Farewell to you, My Friend .." and then suddenly ..

DENG!!

the rain poured hard. and you know, what's the insane scene?

it stopped like just 3seconds the moment i stopped singing.

RAWRR. isn't that GREAT?

so from then on, i won't be singing that song again during evenings! :P

And that ends my day :)

Work. Work. Work.

2009-10-02T21:56:00.000-07:00

Saturday October 3, 2009 --Feels like something' missing.

~~Woman~~ GIRL at W O R K.

Another post saying i've got lot of things-slash-stacked up things i gotta do but still hasn't started anything. ARGH. Typhoon Pepeng has already left. Is that good news? ABSOLUTELY.

GRR. For a week of NO CLASSES, my homeworks are still UNFINISHED.

My jounal in English- half finish
My BUOD in El-fili- 1/8 finish
My bookmark in Arts- no plastic cover yet
My project in TLE- haven't started yet
Our project in ECON- NO PRACTICE yet
Our project in Music- NO plans yet

See? many things to complete and i'm acting like .. YIHAAA!! HAHAHA!

well, i don't want to complicate my life as of now, im enjoying our early "SEMBREAK".

yep, there will be NO SEMBREAK anymore .. but that's OK. Nothing to worry about ..

Queen of MARTYRS.

2009-09-30T22:53:00.000-07:00

Thursday October 1, 2009 --Decided.

you chose that path;

and i chose this.

Let's see if we're going to see each other

at the end of the rainbow ..

This will be a NICE post :)

I have this short story, wanna know?

okaay .. here it goes ..

there's this girl who loves her bestfriend ..
she'll do anything just to make him happy ..
and then one day ..
her bestfriend got into a very bad situation ..
so the girl COMFORTED him to the best she can to make him smile again ..
as the days pass by ..
the girl felt that her bestfriend was again happy ..
and because she felt that she was not needed anymore for comforting ..
she tried to focused her life again into HER life again ..
so again, days passed and she forgot about her bestfriend ..
she was oh so happy ..
she felt that she was FREE and she was kind of relief knowing that ..
both of them are happy ..
but one thing is bothering the girl ..
but instead, she left it UNSAID.
she continued to be BUSY and tried herself to forget about her "too much" concern about her bestfriend ..
her other friends noticed that ..
she wasn't that noisy about her bestfriend anymore
one of her friends asked,
"hey girl, are you okaay? how's you and your bestfriend?" ..
she answered,
"nothing new. still friends.."
that day, she felt like she needed to talk to her bestfriend to know what's going on ..
and sadly, her bestfriend was also TOO BUSY and told her,
"hey bestfriend, im sorry for not updating you. i'll update you soon cause im going somewhere .."
and the girl just felt sad and said,
"okaay. take care bestfriend."
after that, they both become busy persons and haven't told each other stories like they did before ..

One day, the girl received a message from the friend of her bestfriend ..
she was asking if the girl has feelings for her bestfriend ..
she told her NONE.
and the girl was happy to know that she could be with the girl's bestfriend ..
the girl, who had feelings for her bestfriend for years now,
just freely accepted that she and her bestfriend can't be more than just friends ..
and because she's tired of waiting ..
she decided to MOVE ON.
and they lived happily ever after ..

T H E E N D ♥♥

nice story, isn't it? i know right? HAHAHA!

well, anyway, i need to do a lot of things pa ee ..

for example, *taking a bath* HAHAHA! eeew! HAHAH!

gotta have my nails done pa and my homeworks :)

Gotta go. Till Next time :)

Fashion Icon

2009-09-27T05:22:00.000-07:00

Sunday September 27, 2009 --Fashion Icon

Fergie, the Dutchess

So I'm planning to have this Garage sale for about 2 weeks now .. and i'm guessing that my mom won't allow me to have because she thinks i can't handle one. hmmm ..

Maybe you're asking why do i need this Garage Sale?
Simply because I want to change my wardrobe :)
I was inspired by Gossip Girls' Fashion Sense and wanna try implementing it to my own.
But still, of course, with my own fashion style :)

There are lots of garments i need to buy and need to have in my closet ..
just like Khakis, uhmm .. Slux, Plaids ..

I'm planning to copy Leighton Meester's Style .. NO PANTS :)
HAHAHA! but of course, i would still have the consideration for Skinny jeans :)

Another is, that Boho Chic Style of Blake Lively which originally came from her fashion icon, Kate Moss. Loved the way she dressed in that Long Bohemian Dress and with a pair of gladiator sandals. Also loved the way she dresses with uhmm .. short dresses :)

Im planning to change my style from Rocker Chic-to-Preppy looking Classic Look :)
is that good or not? hmm.
But anyway, there's no harm in trying, right?

But WAIT!
I really need advices if i would still pursue this garage sale.
i also hope if i would pursue this, many people would buy :)

Homeworks, EH?

2009-09-23T04:57:00.000-07:00

Wednesday September 23, 2009 --i dare you to MOVE.

i love to chill.

i love to relax.

i love to ..

i love chocolates but i love you MORE.

2009-09-23T03:39:00.000-07:00

Wednesday September 23, 2009 --My Necessities.

A fresh new Pedicure.

To have my Derma already.

Still got tons of homeworks to do..

Play Dress Up.

Write My English Journal.

.. and loving Miss Sophia Bush.

Ah. just love her :)

need to say more? :)

BMSC '09

2009-09-20T03:05:00.001-07:00

Sunday September 20, 2009 --I LOVE VOLLEYBALL & MY TEAM.

MY TEAM :)

Here's a LONG and MEANINGFUL post aa.

so, be ready.

BMSC '09 is a one memorable event in my life .. Maybe, one of the greatest that happened in my life. I always dreamed of reaching the NCSU but to my dismay, i failed. But, that doesn't stop me from loving the game. I still now continue to play and make myself stronger even though i won't be using it in college. Yes, you heard right. I won't be joining any varsities in college cause they don't have varsities. HAHAHA! poor me. The reason i pursue to play this, is my PASSION. The one thing that i hold through these years ..

SORRY.

i wanna say sorry to all those people whom i've hurt during my stay in this Volleyball team since i was in freshmen all through today. I want to say Sorry to ..

Mitchiko, for all the times i scold you kasi naman .. i know you could give MORE :)

Ces, for scolding everytime you're late or doesn't attend practices.

Pilar, for making FUN of me ALL THE TIME and scolding you for not receiveing the ball, properly.

Kate, Pam and Ecka, for also not focusing in the game.

Cami, for always telling you to set the ball higher :)

Bis, for ruining your life. NYAHAHA!

and to my sister, Rhobz, sorry if i am always mean to you. i hope you understand that its also for your sake :)

Franchesca, for leaving you(?) everytime we gather.

Den, for sometimes being a BAKAW to you.

Sorry for maybe, ~~not~~ being the Captain that you actually imagined pero i hope that you know in your heart, i was. Sorry kung minsan wala ako sa mood, i just need some time to chill. gets? ayun, Sorry for making you all worried :) HAHHA! gumaganun? HAHHA! ayun, SORRY :)

THANKS.

I wanna say my gratitude to the people who helped me who i have become now.

Rizzie, Xamae, Ate Cath, Isay and CAPTAIN Elaine, for teaching me the principles in life. Kung wala kayo, hindi ako magkakaganto (GAGO.) HAHAHA! kidding. pero sa totoo lang, SALAMAT. Dahil sa inyo, marami akong narealize in life and syempre, you're always there for ME :)

Sa mga coaches ku na sina Chavez, Sir Eman, Sir Robert and Sir Ceasar, maraming SALAMAT sa inyo at ako'y naging isang malakas at BOBONG este MAUTAK na player ng Volleyball. :) Hindi ko makakalimutan ang mga MURA este mga LECTURE niyo sa aming team :)

And last but not the least, my teammates, MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT at binigyan niyo ng kulay ang aking senior year. Never ko kayo makakalimutan. Lalo na yung Batch ng team KO :) You'll always be here in my HEART :) Tandaan niyo lang lagi, "Ngiti sa Buhay, MAGCOKE :) " okaaay? Thaanks din sa pagpapagasgas ng tuhod kong kay ganda during BMSC. HAHAHA! at higit sa LAHAT, salamat for being MY TEAM :)

I'M GOING TO MISS ..

*yung times na inaasar ako ni Pilar na "UHOG!"

*yung mga barahan na, "PEDE PEDE .."

*PILAR for being such a GAGO and for being my beloved teammate who's always there to pissed me off and also there to support me.

*BIS na sulutera sa LAHAT ng mga boylets ko. HAHAHA! dont you worry, mga pinagsawaan ko na sila :P

*ECKA for always(?) giving me WATER and taking pictures of me. NYAHAHA! Paparazzi? :P

*PAM for being there. LITERALLY. HAHAHA!

*sina DEN and CES, naku!! etong dalawang toh mamimiss ko ng SUPEERRR !! yung tawag niyo sakin na CAPT. and yung lagi akong pinapataw and all .. mamimiss ku yun. lalo na yung nilalambing niyo ako .. *sob*

*yung MCDO moments naten especially the first time na nagmcdo tayo LAHAT :) yung bote, yung commercial kuno and yung meeting with ED ni Cami :)

*yung sama-sama lagi during BMSC, kahit mukha na tayong magkakamukha ay patuloy pa rin tayong nagsasamasama :)

*yung walang kamatayang JOKES sa loob ng ALTERA :)

*yung camwhoring nateng moments

*yung "1,2,3 SAY, WOODRIDGE TEAM!!" na paulit ulit nating sinasabi.

*yung ikot-ikot natin sa court everytime we're going to score.

*yung PETCHAI na palo ni Chiko.

*yung Service ni Ces.

*yung takutan natin sa CR na puro lang naman SIGAW niyo yung nakakatakot.

*pati yung mga OPEN-FORUM naten, mamimiss ko!

*yung bihisan natin sa gilid ng stage ..

*syempre, di mawawala sa mga mamimiss ko yung TRAINING at mga mura ni Coach. HAHAHA! example, "PUTANG INA MO PILAR!! GUMALAW KA DIAN!!"; "Sige, MAGPAKAGAGO kayo dian sa ICC!!" and lastly, "IDIOTS."

*yung mga times na manghahunting kami ni bis ng boylets. HAHAHA! Landi ee ..

*yung dayaang nangyayari during training ..

*yung chibugan moments.

*especially the PANCIT part. :P

*mamimiss ko yung pagtutulungan niyo akong barahin tas biglang lambing. *sob*

*yung transition at magkakagulo sa court. NYAHAHA!

*and lastly, i would miss everything especially MY TEAMMATES :)

and before my post would end, gusto ko lang sanang malaman ng team ko kung gaano ko sila kamahal. Team, i'll always LOVE YOU kahit anong mangyari at dahil kayo nga ang AKING TEAM :) Sana walang limutan at sana meron akong maiwan na tatak dito sa team naten. Wag sanang magbago ang ating samahan and sana .. dun sa mga matitirang teammates ko ay ipagpatuloy ang kanilang training to be a better player than us :) okaaay? malaki ang inaasahan ko sa inyo, please don't disappoint me, okaaay? kaming mga ATE niyo ay andito lang para magsupport and mag-give guidance to you all :)

At para naman sa mga kabatch ko, bisibisita tayo minsan sa WC aa .. parang Tune Up or something like that .. AHAHAHA! feeler ee noh? HAHAA! basta, walang iwanan! okaaay?

I LOVE YOU guys :)

FOREVER and ALWAYS, TEAM 09.

Success begins from WITHIN :)

2009-09-18T19:05:00.001-07:00

Saturday September 19, 2009 --A NEW DAY HAS COME.

can't you see I'M BUSY.

BMSC is finally over now.

gotta concentrate on my studies na ulet.

UGH. damn.

things i need to accomplish before MY BIRTHDAY :)

*finish my journals in English this Sunday.

*do the BUOD in Filipino.

*Physics notes.

*Quizzes i missed.

*have the a PEDICURE cause i didn't have the time to do this for about uhmm .. a month? *blush*

*have this FACIAL be scheduled.

*have a SPA treatment for this aching neck and tired muscles.

*have a whitening lotion for my NEGNEG skin. AHHAHA!

*look for more DELICACIES :)

*and wait ..

isn't that great? having so much things in mind and having so many things to do?

at least, i keep myself busy than just wasting time being EMO. HAHAHA!

anyway, i'll just blog what happened during BMSC later. :)

im too inactive today.

today's wheather is oh so damn HOT~!

and again, i just want readers to know that ..

crystal clear? :)

I am now FRAGILE.

2009-09-12T07:48:00.000-07:00

Saturday September 12, 2009 --HAPPY BIRTHDAY WIFEE.

"and now, i declare that my heart is considered as FRAGILE."

don't want to share it here 'cause maybe ..

just maybe, you'll be reading my blog again.

so i won't be posting anything 'bout how i feel.

just simply my gratitude towards these 'EXPERIMENTATION' of the game called L-O-V-E.

COPYCATS. FAKE. CARBON COPIES.

2009-09-11T04:56:00.000-07:00

Friday September 11, 2009 --HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOUELLA.

today's sharing would be about the people who keeps on pantomiming my style especially the things i do. i can say that i may be ~~NOT~~ the prettiest, smartest and coolest girl that you know pero siyempre di maiiwasan ang ilang mga tao na 'maastigan' or matuwa sa mga ginagawa ko. pero sana, they won't COPY the same 'signature' moves or style i do. kasi parang feeling ko, wala na akong ORIGINALITY.

basta, i try to EMPHASIZE to all those people na who keeps copying ME. ee they can never be naman ee, so why practice? HAHAHA ! kapal ee. pero seryoso,its already getting on my nerves na kasi. pero i try to have more PATIENCE kasi Dad once told me, "ayaw mu nun, madami nahanga sayo?"

thaaanks, but NO THANKS.

i like the way i am.
i like people knowing me for the things i do and for being ME.
so please, stop being a 'counterscript'?

Hate COPYCATS.

Can we make it this SIMPLE?

2009-09-10T04:22:00.000-07:00

Thursday September 10,2009 --We can make it, if we chose to.

Volleyball is my GAME :)

An exciting, troubled and as usual, CONFUSING day has given me. why?
First, imma start last monday, before going back to our normal lives after Sportsfest. I, APOL VILLALUNA, has a tooth be removed by my dentist, Dr. Sarah. and sadly, it was located below at the back of my mouth. syempre, masakit yung kasi dulo ee. ayun, so im now a certifies BUNGI :)
HAHHA ! UGH.

so hindi ako nakatraining kinabukasan kasi supposedly, this week tadtad ng training but because may bunot ako, i chose not to train ( BAWAL din naman kasi talaga ako. ) AHHAAH ! dapat nga 3days pahinga kaso nakiusap na lang ako kay Dra. na kung pde 2days na lang. kasi we only have 5days of training di bale, 3days lang ako makakapagtraining kasi minus yung 2days diba? talagang nagMATH pa talaga ako ee noh? HAHAH ! aun, wala akong ginawa nung tuesday kundi tumingin sa kanila. UGH. pero nung wednesday, grrabeh !!! super tiis ako na hindi pumunta ng gym kasi kapag nakita ku sila, super maiingget ako. HAHAHA ! super bitter ako that day kasi di ako nakahawak ng bola. i mean, di ako nakapgtraining .. pero dahil di ku rin naman talaga matiis yung mga teammates ku, pumunta pa rin ako to see how they are doing. ( ayee. KILEG SILA. NYAHAHA ! ) pero walang samang biro, i really missed them :)
ayun, so nung pumunta ako dun sa gym, tamang sabi si sir na, " oh magdala ka ng PANCIT bukas. utang mo sa team. " grrabeh !! ako ba may kasalanan kong bakit masakit ngipin ko?! tae toh si sir ee. pasalamat siya, uto-uto ako that day. HAHAHA !

so kinabukasan, nilbre ko nga sila ng Pancit. UGH. napagastos tuloy ako ng wala sa oras. HAHHA ! ayun, at sa araw na ito, ako ay haggard dahil sangkatutak ang assignments. hirap talaga kapag naghahabol. HAHAHA ! miski sa L-O-V-E .. HAHAAH ! gumaganun? XD HAHAAH ! pero masaya naman ako this day, thaaanks to my BOYFRIEND ( YUJI COMADIZO) and BISPRIN ( MEYMEY ALCANTARA) .. sayang si pilar, kung nibigay niya lang sakin yung 30php na promise niya ngayon, edi sana MAS MASAYA ako. HAHAH ! pero still, im contented about the happenings in my day :) nagkaroon din kami ng OPEN-FORUM sa team KO. yes, team KO. HAHHA ! kasi nabinyagan na po akong CAPTAIN ng team. share :) ayun, okaaay naman yung sharing. natouch lang ako dun sa sinabi nina Ces and Den kasi naiinspire sila maglaro dahil sakin. AHHAH ! wala lang, parang nakakataba ng puso kasi may nakakaappreciate pa ng mga little things ko. wee :D drama ee noh? AHAHAH ! ayun, tska sarap pakinggan yung name na' CAPTAIN' .. HAHA ! share :)

nung nagtraitraining na kami, super HIGH yung adrenalin ku. ewan ku kung bakit. siguro dahil namiss kong magtraining. NYAHAHA ! pero enjoy naman kahit saglit lang training kahit medyo BITIN. speaking of BITIN, kainis na JERSEY yan!! BITIN yung sa t-shirt ee. parang nagkulang tlga sa tela. AAARRRGGGHH !! X( kabadtrip nung umuwi ako ee, pagkasukat ku, sakto sa waist line ee gusto ko mas mahaba kasi para pag angat nung kamay ku di kita tiyan ku. NYAHAHA ! okaay lang, di naman ganun kataba tiyan ku .. ( tanong, MAY TABA BA AKO? HAHAHA !) ayun, pero the rest of my day, masaya naman except again this evening ..

i saw the profile of the wifee of bespren, and he commented, " kinaen ku na mii. iloveyou. mwa." ouch? NAH. im used to that. just wanna share :) ayaw ku na maxado magreact ee .. i know naman na kasi kakalabasan :) kaya, hayaan na lang :) whatever happens, i still be loving him pero siguro, different degree na. siguro, as a BESPREN na lang tlga .. pero its okaaay kasi at least i told him. NO REGRETS :)

ayan, bukas training ulet at hindi ko pa nagagawa yung mga dapat kong gawin kasi SUPER TAMAD ako. NYAHAAH ! nga pla, dagdag sa saya ko, im also touched dun sa sinabi ni JADE na dahil din sakin kaya siya masaya ngayon.. well because i helpen him 'daw' sa LOVE issues niya .. basta, i gave him some wise(?) advices, and he followed it naman. so i was grateful din :)

ayan, soo ..

AKO NA MASAYA !!

AHHAAH ! :))

Improvement.

2009-09-03T04:45:00.000-07:00

Thursday September 3, 2009 --Improvement or PRIDE?

Third of Sporstfest, it didn't rain. YEY !! thanked GOD :))
ayun, so we didn't have any game today because 'waiting' kami .. it means our team doesn't have any lose :)) how great is that naman diba?

pero kaninang training namen sa i was so fustrated with myself kasi wala akong laro kanina. as in, WALA. kasi kabado ako kay MOKZ. and yes, KINAKABAHAN DIN PO AKO.

UNBELIEVABLE? no.

ganun talaga ako kapag kaharap ku siya, hoping na sana malagpasan ku ang takot ku sa kanya. ewan ko ba, since third year pa ako ganto .. everytime i see her play i am so amaze at the same time, natatakot.

pero i'll try my very best to improve my JUMP and SPIKE :)
i hope i can handle it :))

nga pala, im won BRONZE MEDALIST in athletics- 400m dash.
i also got my CONGRATULATIONS sa Iacademy (my soon-to-be college school),
dumating yung mga teammates ko last year na SUPER miss ko. HAHAHA !
and CHAMPIONSHIP na bukas. :))

wish us Goodluck and GOD BLESS our team :))
VIVA SENIORES !!

My reputation grows with every FAILURE.

2009-08-31T05:36:00.000-07:00

Monday August 31, 2009 --No man is a failure with friends :)

Self-sabotage is the smartest thing you can do if you're sabotaging a self that is not really you.

There is no failure except in no longer trying.

A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable but more useful than a life spent in doing nothing.

There are two kinds of failures: those who thought and never did, and those who did and never thought.

The mystery of existence is the connection between our faults and our misfortunes.

some of the quotes i saw :)

UGH. so this day was FAILURE day. that's it :|

Unforgettable Punchlines

2009-08-24T03:01:00.000-07:00

Monday August 24, 2009 --PUNCHLINES

so eto na ang mga inaabangang mga PUNCHLINES ng tamBULLIES :)) hope it would make your day a LAUGHABLE day. >:)

Danhell.

--Bryan Tan

Ng Agila.

--Esquillo aka Chief

At mga BITUIN.

--Jazeel

Don Simon, TAO PO ..

--Bianca

5,6,5,6,7,8..

--Apol

Oi Makiniiiig ..

--Melanie

Tatawa ka pa?! Ikaw? Tatawa ka?!

--Bon

PROMDEH ka kasi. PWEH !!

--Geneve

IT all yours.

--Irish

Suuun!! Tuuu!! Kaaan!! Tuuu!! Taaan!!

--Boys ng Tambuli

Sibaaak!!!

--ALL BULIIES :)

San siya pupunta? Sa BITS?

(sabay turo kay Irish..)

--Nay Lizet

Hay Nakuuu ..

--Nay Lizet

LECHE.

--Nay Lizet

HUDAAAS KAAAA !!!

--Fiona

Its Over LOSERS.

--Ymarcial

IMPERTINENTEH !!

--Arvin

Oh diba, ANG GANDA GANDA ..

--Rens

Sige. Tumakbo ka, magtago ka, ipikit mo ang iyong mga mata at gawin ang nais mo..

--Papa P

(tone of Maarte)

EEEEEE...

--Mama M

Hindi na kayo nakakatuwa.

--Mihara

Alam mo.

--Melanie

HA?

(facial expression)

--Jonie

Mader, Mader, Why did you leave me?

--Mykol

Rens: Maam oh. LIZETTE is LOVE daw oh ..

Nay Lizet: LIZETTE MO MUKA MO !!

Tae.

--Apol

Excuse Nga.

--Toper Uy

During SC..

Yma: Roses are Red, Violets are Blue

when i Flush the Toilet,

I remember YOU!

(turo kay Toper Uy)

During H1N1 issue..

Sir Roderick: Walang magrereact ha..

WALANG PASOK BUKAS.

SILENCE.

Nay Lizet: Walang Pasok Bukas.

Bullies: WHOO !!

Nay Lizet: ah ganun, eto di kayo makaka-whoo ..

GET ALL YOUR THINGS INSIDE YOUR LOCKER ..

Bullies: ...WHOOO!!!

Sir Noel: Mga TARANTADO kayo !! Kelan niyo balak magpagupit?!

Jonie: NGITI.

Ang Masarap mong tinola at sinigang at ang espesyal MOOOONG adobo ..

--Tope Magni

During Vocalization ..

HO !

--Bitong

AT !!

--Girls ng Bullies

During Play sa Health about Mental Health ..

Geneve: Ano ba yang tinuturo mo sa Anak mo?

Yma: ee kasi naman .. INA-APPLY NIYA EE.

Rens: Sir, ano po gagamitin pang measure?

Sir Nico: eto. (sabay abot ng METER STICK)

at ang pinakaGAMIT na PUNCHLINE ..

LL.

stands for ..

Lizette is Love

&&Laban Lizette.

sa 3months nameng samahan ay nakabuo na kami ng mahigit kumulang na sampung mga punchlines.. sa mga natitirang buwan kaya,, makakailan pa kaya kami? :))

ABANGAN.

Short Post :))

2009-08-23T04:59:00.000-07:00

Sunday August 23, 2009 --Grreaat.

after 1o years, again, im blogging :))

imma start my blog since, uhmm .. our Exam? HAHAHA ! okaaay ..

we had our exams last August 13- 15, 2009 and i FYI, i didn't finshed the exam in Physics and had a terrible time in HEALTH !! darn that HEALTH examination .. i hate it !! it was the MOST mahirap test ever. after our examinations, actually di ko nafeel na examination week namen cause we are so haggard about the BIGKASADULAWIT, na natalo naman kami sa CRIMSON. we won first place last August 20, 2009. almost everyone expected that Tambuli would be winning that competition pero syempre, gaya nga ng sabi ni Nay Lizet, "iba- iba ang taste ng mga judges..". kaya ayun, hinyaan na lang namen pero the fact na may nagyayabang sa Batch na nakatalo samen na kala mu napakagaling nila .. UGH.

BENZ ALMASCO and AESON TOLENTINO.

dead meat of their batch >:)

basta yun, di ko na lang pinapatulan kasi naman ee .. yung mga kabatch ko din, mga SCARED .. haaay. basta, kahit ano mangyari WE'LL FIGHT !! meron pa naman kaming presentation bukas .. HAHAHA !! at kung angasan lang, sauce. NO PROBLEMOO sakin :))

today, we had a practice and i am soo TIRED. imma make kewnto na lang tungkol sa OTHER problems ko next time .. as of now, i wanna solve them first .. :))

Am i TOO SOON or just TOO LATE?

2009-08-16T08:53:00.000-07:00

Monday August 17, 2009 --Am i TOO SOON or just a little TOO LATE?

wondering what's this blog all about.

well as usual, its about MR.BESTFRIEND.

but this would be the LAST, that i would type his name here ..

yeah. i saw their FS, and had NEW picture;

i saw HIS FB, and had a wall photos of her captioned, " asawa co toh aken lang toh =) " ;

and its their MONTHSARY TODAY.

imma ask you, HOW GREAT WAS THAT?

ikr? im JUST his bestfriend but im reacting like some kind of a JERK.

im sorry but i can't take the jealousy inside of me. its burns like HELL dude.

and i can't take it any longer ..

so im doing myself a FAVOR and cutting all the communications we could have,

even though WE'RE BESTFRIENDS.

i can't pretend naa, i wanna be FREE and HAPPY.

this is it.

i'm now officially LETTING YOU GO.

happy? good.

SMILE.

BYE and BE HAPPY ..

BES :|

Holding Back .. NOT.

2009-08-12T04:32:00.000-07:00

Wednesday August 12, 2009 --~~Holding Back~~ Finally, OVER IT :)

so here's another blog post FOR YOU.

i've got lots and lots of questions to ask but i will wait for October to come to finally see you personally ask you these questions ..

* why are you doing 'this'?

* are you happy?

* does SHE know?

* when will be the time that you would let me go, in case you're already feeling of GIVING UP? (this question is already answered.)

* are you also hurting the SAME WAY i am hurting?

* do you know how much i miss you and want to see you so badly?

* are you aware of MY PROBLEMS?

* are you still interested in me because of ME or just having that feeling of GUILT and SYMPATHY? (this too.)

* do you still want to continue or we should already part ways cause we know this can't work unless we stay strong?

* do you really have the SAME feelings the way i have feelings for you? (clearly, NO.)

and that are the questions im going to ask you when you come back home. okaaay?

THANKS.

for all the time you wasted for me and all the efforts you showed to me. even though some of them are just so-so. i also thank you for telling me how you feel but i still want to know THE REAL FEELINGS you are really having right now. ( which NOW, i know.)

SORRY.

i guess this part is going to be long. :)

im sorry for all the tears? and sad nights i gave you. i know, i'm just your bestfriend and im doing this to you. im sorry if you sometimes think that i'm UNFAIR and doesn't believe you at times. i'm sorry for asking you too many questions about this matter and pressuring you so much. i just don't wanna be hurt again especially by THE SAME PERSON. hope you understand that's why i ask irritating questions. Im sorry for the SUDDEN INTERVAL between you two love birds. Im really sorry Bes, im just scared if i didn't tell you, i might REGRET it at the end. i just don't want to be my dad that is scared to say his feelings because of REJECTION. but im different. yes, im scared but i faced the consequences of my actions and if you do really feel the same way as i do, then imma fight for it but until then, we should remain friends and that should it be. i also hope you understand that im NOT leaving you, okaaay? its just taking some time BACK, kaaay? i am also sorry for wasting your time sometimes and being such a BULLY to you at times maybe, i just missed how things were supposed to be :) anyways, SORRY for all the things i didn't know that hurted your feelings.

I WISH.

i wish you TRUST ME and be able to handle this challenge between us, "magbestfriend". if you think im not affected, YOU'RE DEAD WRONG. sometimes nga, i wanna ask you kung kaw ba ganun ka-affected gaya ng pagakaaffected ko ee, pero i can't. because i don't want us to always fight and have sleepless nights because of this 'not a big deal issue'. i wish that you would choose the decision of your life that you won't have any regrets. if you think, im holding back your happiness then maybe, you should let go of my hand but if its the other way around, i would gladly hold yours back. but now, you've got lots and LOTS of time to think, plan and anticipate of all the things you have to think. and if i haven't replied to you for quite sometime now, please bare with me, bes. im just trying my best to do whats right for ME and YOU. and you know deep down that this is the RIGHT thing to do. don't be scared bes, that my feelings for you will change, okaaay? maybe at some point, my feelings for you will just fade because of not having communication BUT bare in your mind that MY FEELINGS won't change, okaaay? i just need you to TRUST ME the same way i TRUST you :) so for now, i won't be making some replies to you muna. every 16th of the month, i will make paramdam to you and remind you na i'm still here :) i also wish na you'd be able carry on life ( which i see your doing just FINE.) and please, not be mad at me for doing this. i also don't want the NON-COMMUNICATION thingie but yun nga, its really affecting me and my lifestyle. don't think that IT'S YOUR FAULT, okaaaay? its MY DECISION and no one's to blame. i wish you to take care of yourself and don't do things that you know will hurt you in the end. you're mature enough na to know what's right from wrong, okaaay? and lastly, i wish that when you come home sa pinas, we'd still be THE SAME :)

GOODBYE.

okaaay, this doesn't mean na hindi na tayo kikita, okaaay? goodbye FOR NOW. and here's another thing, GOODBYE is different from LETTING GO. okaaay? Goodbye means "i'll see you again when im ready to hold your hand, and you're ready to hold mine." Letting go means "i'll miss your hand. i realized its not mine to hold, and i will never hold it again." gets? HAHAHA ! dami kong alam. ampupu. ayun, basta, i won't let go, just HOLD BACK. :)

so there, for further UPDATES just always visit this site bes ha. unga pla, pwede request? HAHAHA ! could you still say your greetings every morning and every night? so i could be aware that YOU'RE STILL THERE :)) if its okaaay? (tsk. this just means that you're already NOT HERE na. ba't i must TAKE IT.) pero if you don't want, its okaaay :D syempre, i'll be obligated na magreply sayo para makasend ka pa sakin ng greetings mo pero dont expect na mahaba, mostly siguro smiley lang, to let you know na ireceive you texts. :) i guess, i just have to ~~WAIT~~ NOT!

uhmm.. guess this is BYE? okaaay. i've said this again so many times na pero i can't resist diba but this time, dahil nasabi ko na ang mga kailangang sabihin, i think that's enough. if you have to say something or anything, sa FS or sa Multiply ko na lang ha. im just wishing you'll have an open-mind to understand these things :)) (again, which you take very GOOD.)basta, it depends on YOU na. the LAST decision is YOURS. (nga pla, i know that decision na so no need to tell me. dont you worry, i won't take it against you or her :] its all my fault. pero wag ka worry bes, im doing just FINE.)

I WILL MISS OUR LONG CHAT-PHONE CALLS, YOU &EVERYTHING ..

but this is FOR ME ..

BYE.

1.4.3

The Comet Inside Me.

2009-08-11T08:33:00.000-07:00

Tuesday August 11, 2009 --Nothing BAD happened, right?

So here's a blog of MY DAY today.

hmm. let's see ..

i got 28/50 in Calculus; 73/85 in ENGLISH and felt very SAD today, why?

because i don't HAVE to get these low grades because i NEED to have a higher grades to be qualified to be a honor student. i felt really sad today because of MY IMPERFECTIONS.

yep, i also commit mistakes and to bad I'M ALSO WEAK like you.

i really felt bad today kasi English was our first subject so i received the 'bad news' agad. i let it pass kasi i don't want to ruin my day. next, practice in BIGKASADULAWIT. i was so tired kasi i was THE only one who is leading talaga that day. i was effin EXHAUSTED. pero i tried my best to give mu best pa rin to lead my section .. next, i have received again my LOW GRADES in Calculus. ikr? im such a PARANOID girl lalo na sa grades and myself. i'm becoming more and more insecure everyday ..

To my little sister who i think is very blessed right now; to my claasmates who have BETTER grades, BETTER looks aaand BETTER standing in the campus than me; to the WIFE of Mr. Bestfriend; and many more ..

Is that right? NO.

Is that good? NO.

see? i'm turning into a MONSTER of ENVY and JEALOUS and that's a MORTAL SIN. ugh :|

i don't want to be like that. for once, i wanna BE CONTENTED and SATISFIED for what i have and what i've got. but it's the other way around. and I HATE IT !!

what's my resolution?

i don't know.

maybe, i will have to start concentrating my attention to STUDIES and ~~NOT~~ Mr. Bestfriend. and if ever you're reading this, IM SORRY. it's just that i can't give ALL THE TIME to you especially we're NOT exclusive. okaaay? you got your own business to care of and i know, it doesn't include ME. i really don't want to be like your WIFE na walang oras para sayo kasi busy siya. i want to have that particular time na, you know, we could talk all the way and stuff pero now, is not the time. so maybe, imma hold back my feelings for you. but still, IT WON'T CHANGE. i will still WAIT and will be looking forward to you arrival here in the Philippines.

anyway, imma start talking about MY PROBLEMS again.

"WHAT SHOULD I DO?"

that's the frequent question that always pops into my head and im so tired in asking the same question everyday. so starting tomorrow, imma do things that MAKE ME HAPPY and nobody can stop me. even my grades, my insecurities and that boy. but first, i have so many catching up to do, starting with my grades. Tomorrow, i will study for our exam the next day. i have to have grades in Calculus, English, Filipino and Physics cause that are the subjects that are failing for me.

so here are my resolutions:

* STOP COMPARING.

* DO MY BEST.

* SMILE.

simply as that and i won't be crying again because of this STUPIDITY. okaaay? HAHAHA ! i wanna mention my bestfriend, MELANIE TOLENTINO, who was there when i needed someone to lean on. :)) thaaanks.

A Lot Has Happened ..

2009-08-08T02:04:00.001-07:00

Saturday August 8, 2009 --HAPPY BIRTHDAY DALE !!

This week, a lot has REALLY happened. especially YESTERDAY( August 7, 2009)

what are those?

♥we have lots and lots of exams -- FILIPINO and COMPUTER.

♥a conflict with BESPREN, again ..

♥the issue with LOUELLA.

♥deadline of PROJECTS -- Physics and Economics

♥Volleyball Issues

♥President Cory Aquino's Death

so regarding all of this, imma elaborate.

yung sa exam namen sa FIlipino ay grrabeh ang HIRAP. kasi we're supposed to make kwentu about the different theories of panitikan. yung bang Klasisismo, Romantisismo, Realismo and Naturalismo. the duaration of our exam is one week. nung monday Klasisismo, nung tuesday Romantisismo. and guees what kung ano yung kwentu ko sa Romantisismo? HAHAAH ! syempre yung kina BESPEN. HAHAHA ! ang bilis kong natapos kasi .. INSPIRED? di rin. AHAHAH ! ayun, pero somewhat medyo tragic yung ginawa ko sa dulo. basta, kung ano yung nangyayare samen ganun yung nilagay ko. sige, kwentu ku na para mahaba tong post ku. HAHAHA ! this is MY STORY sa Filipino exam namen. topic: ROMANTISISMO. (meaning, na ito ay lubos-lubos; walang batayan at punong-puno ng ibigan.)

INTRODUCTION:
May dalawang magkaibigan na ang pangalan ay LOPA and ISH. silang dalawa ay magkaibigang hindi mapaghiwalay. lagi silang magkasama at laging nagdadamayan. halos lagi nilang saby ginagawa ang mga bagay-bagay; kumaen, pumunta sa skul at miski matulog ay sabay sila.

PROBLEM:
isang araw, nagmamadaling umuwi si LOPA upang kausapin si ISH dahil hindi it pumasok at may nabalitaan si LOPA tungkol kay ISH. " ISH ! ISH ! totoo bang lilipat ka na ng ibang baryo??" alalang tanong ni LOPA. " oo LOPA ee. patawarin mo ako kung hindi ko sayo nasabi. ayaw ku kasing umiyak ka .." " bakit naman?, babalik ka pa naman dito diba? " " oo naman, PANGAKO.." at nagyakapan ang magkaibigan. matagal ang pagkakayakap ni LOPA kay ISH na para bang hindi na ito magpapakita sa kanya lahit kailan ..

BODY:
Nagdaan ang ilang taon at nakapagtapos na ng pag-aaral si LOPA ngunit wala pa rin siyang balita kay ISH. at dahil ito'y kanyang namimiss, pumunta siya sa kanilang hide-out nung sila'y bata pa. hinalungkat lahat ni LOPA ng lahat ng alala ni ISH sa kanya. Nakita niya ang stuff toy na unang regalo ni ISH sa kanya; ang mga sulat niya para rito, ang pictures ng mga laro nila at marami pang iba. at nang binabasa na niya ang librong kanilang paboritong basahin pagkagaling nila sa eskwelahan.. at nang nasa may bandang gitna na siya ng kanyang binabasa, siya'y may nakitang isang sobre at ito'y nakapangalan para sa kanya .. ito'y kanyang binuksan at binasa. Nakalahad dun na hindi na makakabalik si ISH sa kanilang baryo sapagkat ang kanyang tatay ay dun na magtratrabaho sa kabilang baryo. nakalaad din doon na ang pasasalamat at paghingi ng paumanhin ni ISH kay LOPA dahil hindi ito nakapagpaalam sa kanya kasi ayaw niyang makitang umiiyak ito. pinagpatuloy niya ang pagbabasa at lalo siyang nalungkot ng mabasa niya ang mga katagang "MAHAL na MAHAL kita LOPA kahit nung mga bata pa tayo .." napaluha si LOPA sapagkat hindi man lang niya nasabi kay ISH ang kanyang lihim na pagmamahal rito. kaya pinuntahan ni LOPA si ISH kahit hindi siya pinayagan ng kanyang mga magulang sapagkat siya ay nag-aaral pa ng kolehiyo. pero sinuway ito ni LOPA at pinuntahan ang baryo kung saan nakatira si ISH.

CLIMAX:
nang makarating si LOPA sa lugar na iyon, siya ay nagtanong tanong kung nakikilala nila ang batang nasa picture. at ng may nagturo sa kanya kung saan ito nakatira, siya ay nabigla at nalungkot ng nakita niya si ISH na may kahawak na ibang babae. Napatulala lamang ito at nang mapansin ni ISH na may nakatingin sa kanila ay agad itong umiwas ng tingin. hindi mapakali si ISH at para bang kilala niya ang babaeng nakatitig sa kanila ng kanyang nobya. at ng maalala nito si LOPA, agad niyang pinuntahan at sila ay nag-usap. " LOPA? ikaw ba yan?" tanong ni ISH sa babaeng nakaupo bandang dulo ng court na pinaglalaruan niya. "oo ISH, ako na nga ito.." malungkot na sagot ni LOPA. agad na niyakap ni ISH si LOPA dahil sa pagkasabik na nakita niya muli ang kanyang bespren. tinulak ni LOPA papalayo si ISH at nagtanong, " bakit hindi mo sakin sinabi?! BAKIT?!" galit na tanong ni LOPA kay ISH. nagtaka si ISH kung ba't ganun ang tono ng boses ni LOPA.. at bigla niyang naalala ang sulat na kanyang iniwan nung sila ay mga bata pa. " nabasa mo na pala.." " OO!! at ngayon ko lang nalaman na ganun pala?! bakir di mo sakin agad sinabi?! para naman kahit papaanu ay nasabi ko rin sayo nuon ang aking nararamdaman.." " natakot ako LOPA sa mga maaaring mangyari, baka mapawalang bahala ang ating pagkakaibigan dahil sa aking nararamdaman para sa iyo kaya ito ay prinotektahan ku paara kahit papaanu, tayo ay hindi magkakaroon ng ilangan .." " naiintindihan ku yun ISH .." at biglang lumapit ang nobya ni ISH. napatahimik silang dalawa at ipinakilala ni ISH ang babae, " siya nga pla, Si TALA. Nobya ko.." di nakapagsalita si LOPA at tumango na lamang ito .. binigay ang sadya nito rito at saka umalis. " ano ba yan, wala man lang galang .. " sabi ni TALA kay ISH.

ENDING:
Binuksan ni ISH ang kahon na ibinigay ni LOPA sa kanya bago ito umalis. nakalagay duon lahat ng alala ng sila'y mga bata pa. nakalagay din duon ang sulat ni LOPA para sa kanya.. ang sabi roon ay, " ISH, pasensya ka na kung akala mong ikaw ay aking iiwanan or lalayuan sa araw na ika'y umamin sakin. nagulat ako ng nabasa ku yung sulat mo na iyon at ako'y hindi makapaniwalang ganun pala ang nararamdaman mo para sakin. ako din ay may lihim na pagtingin sayo ngunit ako ay takot din sa mga maaaring mangyari kapag ako ay umamin. at eto, ito ang patunay na ika'y aking iniibig din mula dati pa. ika'y laging nasa aking isip sapagkat ako ay naghihintay sa iyong pagbalik. pasensya ka na rin kung biglaang bumisita ako sa baryo niyo, gusto lang kita makita at kung ano na ang lagay mo diyan. Sana nga ay maayos ang buhay mo dian, at maging masaya ka sa lahat ng desisyon na iyong gagawin. ako ay maghihintay pa rin sa iyong pagbabalik dito sa ating baryo at sana'y bumalik ang dating nating samahan." napaluha si ISH at ibanaba ang sulat na kanyang binabasa at tumingin sa labas habang iniisip kung paano niya agad na lamang nakalimutan ang lahat habang si LOPA ay patuloy pa lang naghihintay para sa kanyang muling PAGBALIK ..

bitin yung story noh? HAHAAH ! sinadya ko iyon para makapagisip yung magbabasa. HAHAH ! galing ko noh? :P HHAAH ! anyways, after nung tuesday, wala kaming pasok nung wednesday kasi ililibing na siPresident CORY AQUINO. LONG LIVE PRESIDENT CORY!! nagpractice kami para saBIGKASADULAWIT at nagkaroon ng maliit na salu-salu sa PIZZA HUT SM MOLINO dahil birthday ni Angela. nilibre niya lahat ng pumunta at kami'y nagsaya. HAHAHA ! super grrabeh yung day na yun, kahit hindi si Bespren nagparamdam sakin that day, at least nakayanan kong maging masaya .. kahit medyo nalulungkot ako dahil natiis niya ko. nung thursday, balik sa normal ule. classes na naman pero kami'y nagkaroon ng EXAM sa computer. ayos naman siya, medyo madali pero feeling ko madami akong mali. HAHAHA ! at nang friday na ang dumating .. HAHAHA !

dami nangyari kahapon, nagmcdo kasi kaming Volleyball Girls, prang bonding-bonding lang tas ng pauwi na sina Cami ay nakita nila si ED JASON CADA !! yung lost lovelife ni Cami. HAHAHA ! tagal nilang hindi nagkita tas biglang sa mcdo tas that day pa kung saan nagkwekwentuhan kami tungkol sa LOVELIFE !! odiba? super FATE ng magkita sila .. haaay. ang galing ni GOD. tas nung gabing iyon din ay nagparamdam sakin si JOSHUA ISAAC SUAVERDEZ na nagkaroon ng damdamin para sakin. (hala, nagiging makata na ba ako? HAHAHA !) nabigla ako dahil bigla xang nagpiem sakin sa YM. HAHAHA ! nagulat ako. tas ng araw ding iyon, puro 16 yung nakikita kong number. nagsimula yun nung Calculus namen, pinsolve ako ni maam sa board ata ng sagot dun ay -16;ang suot ku pang jersey nun ay yung freshmen kong jersey which is jersey #16; nung pauwe na ako galing mcdo, nung nasa may stoplight na kami, may nakaharap samin na tricycle na may plate number na 016;at ang pinakahuli ay nung magbubura na ako ng dialed calls ko sa cellphone, nakalagay dun ' delete all 16 contacs?' .. odiba? supr GRRABEH tlga kahapon. di ku maintindihan kung sign ba yun ni GOD or plainly FATE lang?aaarrrggghh !! X( nakakalokang araw tlga kahapon ..

ngayon, puro lang ako ayos ng profiles sa FS, FB at blogspot habang antay kay bespren na muka namang hindi magoOL ngayong araw.di pa talaga siya sakin ngrereply, soo TIIS lang ako. wala naman akong magagawa kung wala siya sa bahay or ayaw niya akong replyan, dibaa? kaya HINTAY lang ako.

I'll be waiting.. I PROMISE.

2009-07-29T01:57:00.000-07:00

Wednesday July 29, 2009 --This one goes FOR YOU

MAKE A WISH ..♥

He..

says ILOVEYOU to two women i think he loves most.
get JEALOUS whenever i would mention other guys especially O and J and G :))
really looks like WILLIAM HUNG, who sang the SHE BANGS. --note SHI BANGS. :))
finds time to chat with me, i think ..
is doubtful about My FEELINGS for him and everything about the WAIT thing.
makes my heart beat faster than my normal pulse rate.
laughs at my pictures then later on tell me how PRETTY i am.
greets me GOODMORNING everyday.
lets me know what he's doing and what he'll be doing.
is VERY SHY about the L-O-V-E thing.
takes a bath every afternoon whenever he's only at home.
sometimes, makes me feel that im somewhat HIS BITTERSWEET ROMANCE but at the end of
the day, he will just let me feel that YOU'RE STILL JUST MY BESTFRIEND.
goes 'GAGA' over my blogs.
hates reading but takes time to read my posts and comments.
kinda saves me sometimes from BOREDOM.
laughs real hard, just like me. but the difference is i slap people's shoulders. HAHAHA !
can speak JAPANESE. :))
draws pictures of me. ( i guess. )
eats like a HUNGRY KID like there's no tomorrow :))
sleeps during his class hours :|
has almost 6 girlfriends as of now :|
plays Basketball, Volleyball and all sport that can be played by a ball, for short BOLERO siya :))
worries about my problems and issues about him and my family.
do some of my homeworks and send it thru YM.
always ask me to sing for him but i only refuse at the end.
is sweet and I'm hoping not only by words.
still cares about the things i'm up to.
is afraid of being left out.
wished that if i only told him a little earlier about my feelings for him, he should've been HAPPIER.
loves Cuddling and Hugging ♥
hates it whenever you'll share something and tell, " ay! wag na lang .." he really do hate that.
waits for me to go OL and vice versa.
has 2 women loving him and is confused who he'll let go and who he'll be with.
becomes SPEECHLESS when we talked about SERIOUS issues.
likes it when i tell him stories about the day i have.
NEVER forget my birthday :)
gives me presents whenever he could give me one.
admits his mistakes and says his sorry later on.
is SHY whenever i tell him CHEESY LINES :))
listens to my problems and give me his sympathy.
gets ANGRY when we talked about my SADNESS.
is GUILTY about what's happening to us now.
is really good at making me FALL for HIM.
often gets sleepy first.
loves the fruit, APPLE. :D
can live a lifetime in front of the computer.
never freaks out of anything. he always show his COOL side.
is good wearing clothes.
is 'HANDSOME'.
has BIG ROOTS in his hands. HAHAHA !
can be sometimes Moody but i guess its part of of his being MATURE.
imagines sometimes if only i told him a little earlier about my feelings towards him.
is still BITTER about me ♥
has great abs. HAHAHAH !
doesn't want me to get hurt but he doesn't know that HE'S THE ONE DOING IT.
cares about my health and grades. :)
cheers me up whenever im down.
DOESN'T know if im in a good mood or not. sometimes kasi i FAKE SMILES just for him not to worry.
is a TOTAL ANIME LOVER.
hates it when im crying but doesn' know that HE'S THE REASON FOR THOSE TEARS.
tells me that he'll wait but only gives me the feeling of FALSE HOPES.
is still BITTER about the past.
but beyond that, i know .. HE LOVES ME ♥♥

Does he ..

think of ME before going to bed?
make efforts just to hear my voice or even make contact with me?
have this GUILT about having a communication with me?
feel the same way that i feel towards him?
tell me LIES or the NAKED TRUTH?
really care for me or only protects me from being hurt?
threatens me of him leaving me or just testing me if the way i feel is real?
what would he choose? FRIENDSHIP or LOVE?
even know that i can't resist him anymore ..?
know about the word WAIT and STOP?
feel that i miss him more than he does with me?
love wifee more than us being friends?

I WISH..

that i didn't said those words to him cause maybe, he still BE HAPPY even without me.
everything would just turn out to be like FAIRYTALES, have those HAPPY ENDINGS.
he won't LEAVE ME.
he could stay by my side even just for a day.
he stops being REALLY REALLY SWEET to me cause he's just making me FALL again.
i won't be hurt by the same person who hurted me the LAST TIME.
GOD could hear my silent inner voice, that me and him could BE FREE.
i never been so FEELINGERA.
i didn't have that pride when i was in gradeschool.
that he told me sooner.
that someday he'll realize that ITS ME all the while.
he won't let me go ..
he knew :|

This Week, SUCKS. :|

2009-07-26T02:43:00.000-07:00

Sunday July 20-24, 2009 --This Week is MY CRY Week.

July 20, 2009

ang saya ng Filipino namen kasi AMINAN NG CRUSHES sa BUONG SECTION. HAHAHA ! gantu kasi, si Maam Ren kasi may pinabasa samin na maiksing kwento ( na MAHABA tlga .. ) HAHAHA ! so ayun, tungkol kasi yun sa isang dalagang walang alam sa PAG-IBIG. tas may nakilala siyang Guy na mas matanda sa kanya .. ayun, NA-INLOVE siya tas nagtanan sila nung Guy .. basta GANUN !! HAHAHA ! tas yun nga yung pinagwa samen ni maam. nagpartner-partner kami sa opposite sex ( partner ko nun si Rens Villadelrey ), tas idedescribe nila yung crush mo and vice versa. and syempre, si rens and me kasi CLOSE kaya lam namen yung mga 'crushes' ng isa't -isa. kaya yun. tas after magsulat, nagroup pa kami ito three tas nagsharing. natawa ako dun kay Yma kasi halatang si Melanie. HAHHAA ! tas nung dinedescribe ni Yma yung crush ni Hermae, taeng itsura yaaaan !! HAHAAH !! mukang timang ee. HAHAAH !! kakatawa tlga. HHAHA ! tas yun nung dinescribe ni Rens si Mr. bestfriend, natawa ako kasi sabi niya .. GWAPO-slash-HAPON-slash-MAPUTI-slash-MAANGAS PERO COOL-slash-JAPORMS. HAHHA ! natawa ako dun sa HAPON kasi SUPER HALATA. grrrabeh ! kaya nung narinig ng mga classmates ku ( kasi si Rens yung pinakaUNANG ininterview ni maam, kaya yun. ) reaction nila is like this, " SIYA PA RIN?"; " TAGAL NA RIN HA .."; "TIYAGA MO, APOL." ..
ako pulang-pula na. amp. :| ayun, tango na lang ako ng tango para di mapahiya. HAHAHA ! tas after namen, daming sumunod. kakatawa yung kay Topher Uy, nakilala niya yung crush niya sa JEEP. HAHAHA !! odibaa? yan ang tinatawag na DESTINY TO MEET. HAHAHA !! tawanan tlga kami lahat ng tanungin ni maam kung pano sila ngkakilala tas biglang sabi ng " SA JEEP PO." HAHAHAAH !! LMAO. basta, super enjoy this day. :)) tas this day din kami nagdecide about the schedule of who's gonna use the computer first. nagtoss-coin kami and as usual, TALO AKO. :( kaya ang schedule ko is every M-W, ako una. and T-TH, ako huli. ang panget sakin kasi nga every T-TH yung training namen ee syempre pagod tas ako pa huli. kaya yun. panget lang sakin. pero anyways, GOD has a purpose kung bakit ako huli sa schedule. kaya ako, accept na lang. :|

July 21, 2009

Namili na si Ssir Cesar ng mga Varsity. amp kasi di nakapasok yung mga inaasahan kong mga players. sina Fiona Salmon and Pat Doctolero. GRRR X(
super iyakan kami. kasi nga syempre, expected pa naman namen na, you know .. basta. tas yun, ako umiyak syempre ( im a REAL CRY-BABY ), kaya yun. tas tinanong ako ni Ssir kung bakit ako umiiyak, sabi ku " WALA POOO.." tas sabi niya, " KUNG GANYAN DIN NAMAN, QUIT MO NA LANG YUNG TEAM." tas umiling na lang ako .. haaaay. tas yun, si Pat super BITTER. sinabihan pa ako ng " AYAW KO MAKIPAG-USAP. WALA AKO SA MOOD." as in, tagos sa Heart ko yun kaya badtrip ako that night. tas nung pag-uwe ku, di pa OL si Mr. Bestfriend. dami ku niiisip, as in. baka narealize niya SA WAKAS na si Wifee niya nga yung THE GIRL for him; Baka nagbasketball siya tas napagod tas NAKATULOG; baka napagod kakahintay tas akala galet ako; INIIWASAN ako .. mga ganun. super kabado na ako. di ku na siya hinantya kasi super pagod din ako that day kasi nga galing training. :|

July 22, 2009

soo this day, nagsori sakin si Mr. Bestfriend kasi NAKATULOG daw siya kagabi kasi NAGBASKETBALL sila. yey!! i mean, yess .. :)) kasi wala lan .. BASTA. HAHAAH ! ayun, pero this day is VERY TRAGIC pa rin. kasi ganto. pasook ako kay MS.REN this day kasi nakatulog ako sa klase niya. as in, NAKATULOG !! hiyang-hiya nga ku kasi sinabihan niya din ako na mabagal maglakad. galing kasi kami ng P.E. class namen tas ayun, sabi niya ang BAGAL BAGAL ku daw maglakad. tas nakatulog pa ako.. sabya sabi, " DI PORKET FOURTH YEAR STUDENTS NA KAYO, PEDE NA KAYO GUMANUN. KAHIT HONOR KAYO, KUNG MAY 'G' KAYO SA CARD, MAWAWALA HONOR NIYO .." grrabeh yung naramdaman ku nun. takot. lungkot. pangamba na baka sakaling di na nga ako magkaroon ng honor this quarter which i REALLY NEED. tas after nun, i tried to say sorry pero sabi niya, " bukas na lang." badtrip siguro talaga .. :|

July 23, 2009

this day is nakakalungkot na may halong saya kasi we made a routine sa SC kasi bukas we're gonna perform naa kasama ang speech namen. kabado ako for tomorrow pero KAYA YAAAN!! HAHAHA! ayun, so today i have to choose between SC or VARSITY. ee dahil kelangan talaga ng choreo sa SC aaand dahil NAGAGALIT NA SI ILA, i have to go dun sa practice and make the dance. AHAHAH ! natapos naman namen yung choreo and had lots and lots of laughs kasi yung mga steps puro mga KALANDIAN KO. HAHAHA ! ayun, tas after we had a meeting diretso ako sa training namen. nakahabol pa naman ako kasi nagjojogging pa lang sila. ayun, nakita ku andun yung mga former WCeans. sina Moks. syempre, si 'CAPTAIN' medyo pasipsip. ako tahimik lan. nabadtrip ako pero its okaaay. PATIENCE yung pinairal ko that day. :)) tas naging close kami Ces kasi kwentuhan tungkol sa mga crushes. HAHAHA ! ayun :))

--starting to be LAZY .. :|

July 24, 2009

MEETING DEE AVANCE ! gaaad ! super haggard yung Fourth year this day. AS IN !! we had the sponsorship for the mass today then MEETING DE AVANCE then volleyball training then pasahan para sa ECON then WDC. aaaaarrrggghhh !! X( pero ayun, nakayanan ku naman lahat. we had our speech and the countings na rin this day. nanalong Secretary si Tine, which i expected. tawanan kami nung presentation ng GIFT PARTY kasi sina Yma and Topher Uy yung bida. HAHAH ! grrabeh yung mga banat ni Yma kay Topher like this:

Yma: Roses are Red, Violets are Blue, God made me White, WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU? * turo kay Topher UY*
Yma: Roses are Red, Violets are Blue, everytime i go to the CR, I REMEMBER YOU. * turo ule kay Topher*

Tawanan talga !! HAHAHA !! tas we had a meeting din sa varsity.. nagHOMILY si Ms. Annie, sameng mga Varsity Players, then we had our training sa Volleyball. naglaro kami kaso mutikan na kaming maGROUNDED kasi we are supposed to go with the school bus kaso di kami nakinig kaya ngacommute kami. we arrive at 8pm na sa house. SUPER PAGOD ako this day kasi daming activities :|

July 25, 2009

dahil tamad na ako magtype. imma enumerate na lang yung mga happenings today;
--PINAIYAK AKO NI MR.BESTFRIEND
>>odibaa. can you imagine? BESPREN pa lang kami ha, nipapaiyak na niya ko. HAHAHA ! don't wanna elaborate more on this issue kasi .. BASTA :|

--WE PRACTICED FOR BIGKASADULAWIT
>>nagalit samen si Mel kasi madaming hindi nagcocooperate. dami kasing tinatamad. ayun. unga pla, I COMMUTED this day. :))

--WATCHED MOVIES WITH FAMILY
>>watched the movie, KNOWING ni Nicholas Cage :)) ganda !! sabi ni Mr. Bestfriend, corny daw yung last part. hindi naman. ganda nga ee .. with matching ICE CREAM pa kami ha. yung nasa pataltas nina Carmina.. Basta yun. HAHAH !

July 26, 2009

Just practiced for CONCERT on August 30. Sayaw kami ng Sayaw. VERY TIRING :|

additional events:
>> we talked about the issue tungkol kay Mr.Bestfriend with my Family and Friends and many of them told me na i have to make 'iwas' or 'bawasan' yung communication but i simply CAN'T. :((
>> I become closer to FIONA SALMON this week :))
>> we are supposed to watch movie sa ATC pero sadly, late na kami. nasa Paradiso na kami kaso traffic kaya bumalik na lang kami and watched sa bahay namen. HAHHA !
>> i am very nervous this 1st quarter because maybe i won't be able to have a honor this quarter .. :((
>> i am also very nervous about the 'THING' with Mr. Bestfriend pero well, GO WITH THE FLOW. :))